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• Flaming (o) Queen

  December 2, 2013

  Wow. I'll admit to being really shocked that I could finally get OD to work for me just now. Granted, I gave up trying a while ago; but I thought to myself this morning, "Let's just see..." and I was pleasantly surprised! Hooray to whoever got it up and running more quickly and smoothly again!!!T...

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• Teeth Hurt the Worst!!!

  October 4, 2013

  I knew it was going to happen. It was bound to, because of the very long delay between when the treatment plan would be approved and when I could get in to my dentist again. You see, my dental stuff isn't very easy, meaning I can't just walk in a get something fixed. Because I'm…

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• Just Catching Up — Again

  September 20, 2013

  Just me, stopping by OD for the first time in a while. I get frustrated, now, when I come here because I have a bit of a slower connection and sometimes it takes extra time for the OD pages to load. I don't know if that situation is just on my end, or what. It…

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• Just Monkeyin’ Around

  August 23, 2013

  Not much to share, really... slept a lot over the past few days, etc. You know, blah blah blah, just like most days lately.But there is one thing that makes me really, really happy, and for which I'm exceedingly proud of myself: I quit smoking!!! Yes, it finally took. Just thinking of the health ...

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• Light

  August 21, 2013

  I think I'm finally seeing my way all the way through and blessedly out of the terrible depression I've been in for a good long while now. I'm not sleeping as much, although still quite a bit; I don't feel as completely hopeless as I had been; and I'm pretty sure I just might have…

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• Patty’s Birthday

  August 12, 2013

  Thinking about my dear Patty this morning. It would have been her forty-seventh birthday today. It seems so strange, after all of these years, to have not sent a card and to know that I won't be calling her. It's the first time in I-don't-know-how-many years I won't get to speak with her on her&h...

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• Practically Bed-Ridden

  August 11, 2013

  Still here. Nothing changed. The depression has gotten deeper, more severe, and I'm sleeping so, so much, even though I'm never rested afterward. I'll wake up, get up, start to do something (anything!) and need to sit down... where I promptly fall asleep again. The psychiatrist wasn't much help, ...

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• Okay, I Give… For Now

  July 31, 2013

  Still sleeping too much. Still really depressed, but not the crying, sad, end-of-my-rope kind of depression. I don't really know how to describe it, other than to say it's a kind of hopelessness combined with the resignation that this is just how it is, you know? I think I've come to a place wher...

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• Does “Alone” Mean “Lonely”?

  July 26, 2013

  I made a mistake when having a session with my counselor Thursday morning. See, I've been going through a pretty terrible depression (sleeping all the time; lacking in personal hygiene; eating or moping when awake; lower-than-normal energy). It's not that I feel particularly sad -- one doesn't ha...

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