Recent Entries

• Let Me Go

  December 9, 2006

  So, it's 6:40pm and I still haven't finished any of the homework I wanted, nay, needed to get done today. I need to focus, but I feel so distracted today, I sort of know it wouldn't be good enough. Even so, I do need to get something done, and I haven't. I'll do it later.I've…

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• Nate and I

  December 6, 2006

  I don't think I could cope without you. We haven't known each other long but you already mean so much to me. It's insane, I barely know anything about you and yet I trust your opinion so much. I don't want you to think that I meant for things to be like this it's just...…

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• I can see for miles

  November 25, 2006

  I feel guilty because I only ever write here when things are bad, I seem to make out that my life is awful and that nothing ever goes right, which is wrong. I have an amazing life and know some amazing people. I just find writing easier than talking, and sometimes I need to get…

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• .live forever – for the moment.

  October 3, 2006

  Today I found a print of a family photograph my aunt's family had taken. It can't have been taken that long before Alice was diagnosed, maybe before she'd started having any tests. I can't believe how quickly it all changed. It still doesn't seem like she's gone. I never saw her all that often an...

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• Just a Thought

  August 27, 2006

  I can't cope I can't cope I can't cope I can't cope I can't cope I can't cope I can't cope I can't cope I can't cope...I don't know what to do. What happens if, once I get to college, I can't deal with it? I'm going to be in the same building, corridoors maybe…

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• Just a change of heart

  August 6, 2006

    -x-

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• Thoughtless

  July 9, 2006

  I don't feel like me today. I feel so unconnected from myself. I can see myself walking around, watch my feet moving but it doesn't feel like me. I can see my hands typing, but they could just as easily be someones on the tvs as they are mine. Who's to say that this is real…

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• Free My Way

  July 6, 2006

  On the surface, things are better for me now then they have ever been: I have a job, I've stopped smoking, I'm almost definitely starting college in september, stopped cutting and not currently crash dieting... So why do I feel so shit? I have no social life, I feel completely alone. I mean, when...

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• First Day

  June 17, 2006

  Oooh, so it was my first day at work today. Was quite nervous, especially when I got there and it was all locked up with no one around. Bet yeah, wasn't a bad day. Couple of idiot kids shouting abuse, but that's about it. My brother came in to see how I was doing, which…

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