We all have something to say, these are my words.
I've always loved to write, its been a passion since I was a child. Hence my reasoning for starting this diary in the first place. I'm not one for just opening up to those I don't know more less those I do know, I'm not a talker in that sense. My feelings and thoughts bloom more in my writing than any other aspects of my life.
It's been a crazy ride
I'd like to say I'm a mut when it comes to emotions because well I'm a mix of them. I do not necessarily believe in things being black and white, I think there's a lot of gray area that people just avoid talking about. To many straight lines so to speak.
I like to think of my self as a mixture of a lot things thrown in a bowl and nothing was measured. A little crazy with maybe some anger issues, but with a lot of love for things. I'm slightly broken and lost some pieces along the way. I have a story it just takes time to hear it.

Latest Entry

Oh you special soul

April 6, 2025
I have some pretty amazing friends, and I can honestly say that the few people I'm close to are pretty special. I have a friend I have known since I was like 7 or 8. When we were younger he hung out more with my older sister because they were the same age and I…
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Recent Entries

  • Unfortunately I created this mess
    March 7, 2025
    Recently I've felt like I've done more talking to my self than anyone actually listening to me.  Sometimes I feel like I could be screaming at the top of my lungs and not one person would even acknowledge me unless they needed something. There was a time where something like that would just hurt ...
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  • Who are you?
    February 20, 2025
    Have you ever been asked about your self and weren't able to answer? I had a conversation with my sister tonight that had me thinking. I had called her this evening because when I had talked to earlier in the day she was very upset with somethings that were said to her. So I called…
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  • Sexually explicit
    February 17, 2025
    I need to feel something beneath the surface, my darker side wants out to play. I need lip biting and clawing down his side. Grabbing and just taking with no remorse. I need to feel the heat of his breath against my neck and down my body. I want to feel the sensation between my…
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  • Conversations
    February 15, 2025
    In past couple day's I've had a lot of conversations about things at one point I would never have talked about. There was a time I was unable to because I didn't know how to put those things into words. I wasn't sure how to express the emotions that came with them in a healthy…
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  • Just one of those nights for randomness
    February 15, 2025
    Today I was thinking about things from a past tense, moments that I've shared with people and the little things I kept close to me all these years later. Those simple things that people would put no thought into me having. Birthday cards with simple notes inside, a movie ticket from a first date,...
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  • Something a little darker
    February 13, 2025
    I remember being quiet and never saying a word. I remember being in dark place and things seeming like they were never going to get any better. I remember being a kid and being told I was just doing things for attention. I remember being slapped in the face and told I wasn't anything. I…
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  • Four years without four
    February 10, 2025
    Today at one point in my life was just another day. I didn't put any thought into the day, I lived my life on this day without a care in the world never realizing how much in my life I took for granted. I never put any thought into that day that I was going…
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  • Who was Matthew
    January 18, 2025
    The month of January and February seem to be hard months for me. The biggest reason being because of my little brother. This year he would have been 30 on the 29th of this month and it really does suck that we cannot celebrate with him. I was suppose to be able to make fun…
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  • A conversation worth having
    January 7, 2025
    So I was riding in the car with my mom last week and we got to talking about things. My mom was in some kind of mood and it seemed like everything was bothering her. I don't remember what exactly started the conversation but I told her that her generation was never taught to deal…
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