*shrug*

i dont know what it is about the water in australia, but it seems to me as if everyone is getting pregnant. however i want another child.. but i dont think being in a 10 month relationship and being engaged for 7 months would be the best to try for a baby.. lol.. im really wanting to wait till im married this time around.. so atleast my parents/friends/whatever dont look down on me like they did with my daughter(5years).. i yearn for another……… but my mother ended up going to a psycic and she told my mother.. that i will be having another child a boy, and he will be bringing another…….. i got my tarot cards read. and they stated im having 2 boys very close together… so close infact that i might be pregnant in the same year.. and that kinda scares the shit outa me actually.. its very frightening, and i guess with this news and how happy the psycic my mother and the tarot cards.. the news was scary. lol…. so really im yearning for a child.. but IF this does happen.. i dont know how i would cope with 2 litteral babies and a school kiddy!!.. so i think the best idea will be throwing tht thought right out of my mind.. and not thinking about it till im 30 lol.. oh crap thats only 6 years away 🙁 lol my daughter will be 11.. oh man.. lol

well how much of a ramble was that… i really dont have anything to update with.. other that alberto and shannon both have the flu.. shannon is over it.. only lasted 2 days.. alberto is at the worst and is in bed…… im bored, have noone to talk to .. only indian ppl on yahoo who message me out of the blue…. which then i like to make my life seem a little more pleasent than it is….. i tell them im married.. im royalty(lol)… and then thy try asking me for money.. which to them might seem what they want.. but in reality.. i dont have enough money to support me, let alone a fully fledged adult and airfare to australia which they want…

what is with them anyways?? "do u love me"  "is ur marrage a love marrage".. do u love ur husband….. do u love me? why dont u love me

bah, can anyone be a little less desperate……   i get more talk out of a paraletic teenager and actually understand them lol…

housework is shithouse at the moment.. ive got a maintance inspection on wednesday they can turn up between 9am or 1pm.. and im lucky i dont have to be at the school that day.. otherwise id be fucked up the rear end

im so bored…. everyones pregnant…. im still missing my 2nd child.. it was around this time i lost ….. i beleive it was a girl…. psycics say it was a boy.. i dont know who to beleive,.. dreams told me kelsey… … wonder if thats a boys name too lol… i dont know…. my dreams are all very weird… like a monkey on crack.. jumps here and there and everywhere..  ….. i had a dream about cockroach’s the other nite…… lol…….. i dont know much about it, but i was young…. teenager.. and well…. a cockroach got stuck to the back of my shirt….. and all the amount of pulling scraping proding.. would not remove the roach…. it was STUCK.. .. i was like…. oh well ill just leave it there……. and everyone in my dream that i walked passed .. talked to.. .. said there was a roach on my shirt. lol…. im like.. it wont come off im too lazy.. im leaving it there.

lol.. its 1035pm sat night,,,, ive got a sore back.. my arse hurts from sitting down for so long on the computer… thereis nothing on austar.. im officially bored and the only think i have to keep me sain is this white box that im typing in, my brain is talking to my fingers.. lol…… leaving now,

bye