How do you know when to be content?

Been wondering about this lately.  How do I know when to be content with anything?

As I’ve probably mentioned before, I’ve been raised to always strive for the very best in everything: work, relationships, achievements… you name it.  And each time I reach a new plateau I end up yearning for the next higher mountain to climb.

But I’m not getting any younger, and this constant search for the "better" thing is making me wonder if I’ll ever be happy with any one thing in my life.  I keep moving to different places, finding new and bigger challenges, and meeting newer and more interesting people, some of whom I end up, temporarily, with…  but all this leads to one inevitable thing at the end of the day: me, with more trophies (real and metaphysical), and alone.

When’s it all going to end?  Is it ever?

Korea is a land where there’s an obsession with families, and people my age don’t usually stay unmarried.  My friends are all asking when I might settle down, and I honestly can’t tell them.  I’ve even started thinking that perhaps I won’t ever get married, convincing myself that it’s probably for the best, given my lifestyle and my fear of committing to anyone for fear that she may not be "the one".  But I can’t deny that, deep down inside, I DO want to get married, start a family and live a long, happy life settled down in a place I can truly call home.  My problem is that everytime I meet someone I feel could be great, I end up holding off just in case I find someone better. 

At some point I’m going to just have to suck it up and make a decision, but I’m mortally terrified that I’ll just be "settling" for someone because she’s there and I’m ready, instead of because she’s really the greatest one for me, and I for her.  All this would probably not matter so much if I had divorce as an option… but I’m Catholic so that one’s not on the table.

Add to this the fact that I can’t even seem to decide where to live my next twenty years, much less my next five, and I’m one confused puppy. 🙂  What’s a guy to do?

Still thinking…