October 4, 2004

Do you kno what today is?¿?¿

Well me either . . .. . .

Well today was ok. Boring as usual

i thought i was over mike but apparently i wasnt cuz i was on the verge of crying most of the day. i couldnt stop thinking about him when we were together, and how he’d hold me, ***shakes head*** i gotta stop that.

Well ryan broke up with Jasmine again. (ryan ur stealing my entry titles “break ups again” yea thats mine*!*) but yea if he’s happy thats all that matters.i just dont want him to have to deal with the stress of break ups cuz it sux *!*

Well during stage production kim accidentaly let something slip. i told her that josh n i kissed and then she’s all “OMG i dont get him first he says he dosnt wanna date you because your not a virgin then . . . ” then i cut her off and asked what she was talking about then she slapped her hand over her mouth and then she’s all “i didnt say anything i swear”. so yea im not supposed to kno that but oh well. i think thats kinda weird cuz its not like im going to push it on him i dont think about that all the time like SOME people and i dont want to do that anymore im over that stage . . . .. but yea i dont really care cuz i dont want to go out with n e one , too many problems come with dating people. But i still think thats stupid even tho i dont want to go out with him . . . does that make sence?

well im waiting for my mom to wake up from her nap then shes going to take me to the mall to get mary her birthday gift.

i chipped my tooth today. not one of the front ones thank GOD *thank you god hehe* but yea i was eating chiken wings and then i went into the bathroom to floss so i can get it out of one of my teeth b-cuz of my surgery theres kinda has a bigger gap so yea i went to do that and was flossing the rest and i saw that the end was chipped and it came out. im so pissed this happend to me last year and i had to get surgery but that was also a bigger piece of tooth so yea but still it makes me mad cuz its alot of money and we dont have alot for another operation thingy. it dosnt hurt but i can eat hard foods now. well i can i just dont want to cuz i wanna b safe n not break it n e more. So im going to wait until my dad gets home on sunday and we’re going to have to figure things out then. i just dont want to cost them any more money they’ve put so much into my house.

well im going to go get ready for the mall. leave me some love hehe

later days . . .. . . .

p.s. ryan tell me what you think of your diary colors. ok? love you*!*

HI THANX FOR LEAVIN A NOTE !!!! I TRIED TO COPY AND PASTE THE PIC BUT IT DIDNT WORK MAY I ASK WHY U ARE AGAINST IT ,I KNO ITS BAD BUT DID YOU HAVE AN EXPERIENCE ? THANX WRITE BACK

RYN: Thanks, that’s good advice. I’m just not really one for working out, starving myself is really more my route. Take care

-[RJB]-

October 5, 2004

Thankyou so much Jenny, you made my eyes well up, with joy of course. I’m sorry that i called Phx a shithole, it’s just i wasn’t in the greatest mood at the time ya kno, and i can’t possibly comprehend that for too long cuz i’m stuck here along with everyone else and you. Yea the stress of break ups is horrible, but so was the stress of being w Jasmin —

— all the drama with her always thinking that she wasn’t good enough to be with me *cuz i’m such a wonderful guy* What is that!? But n e ways, ………………… ARLENE! Rofl. Dang…. Her lips are like some kind of, idk.. a drug? I can’t wait for the day I finally get to kiss her, the longer it takes to happen all the better it will be when it happens, ya kno?

I’m so glad you noted me, ya.. you would *think* that losing your gf bf, your everything, would be horrible, but then when it literally happens and you lose your **Everything** lol. But that just made me that much stronger, gave me high ambitions, made me the person i am today :D, I love you soo much Jenny!!!! I could hug you 4 ever, lololz, I’ll *ALWAYS* be willing to help you Jenny-

— Just tell me if i get too concerned and it becomes a problem, i worry about you sometimes, like today when u were sad and you walked away from me, I really wanted to see you and talk, but i have got to go now, I love you and I’m glad we’ll always be there for eachother to make it through our hard-ships. -Ryan

P.S. Thanx for changin my *journal* lol, i love it, i can actually read it w out straining my eyes!

hey u remember me ? tell me if u like tis its really funny ~ Boys are cheats and liars. They’re such a big disgrace. They will tell you anything to get to second… Baseball, baseball, he thinks he’s gonna score. If you let him go all the way, then you are a… Hor… ticulture studies flowers, Geologist studies rocks, The only thing a guy wants from you is a place to put his… Cock… roach

the one where u said if u are against child abuse copy and paste this i tried but it didnt work!! well ya that ryme is from a movie me amnd my freind demi say it all the time !!! u can check out her ODtoo look it up under hers is keqwl too !!! see u ! note me !!!

October 7, 2004

It was np savin ur notes, Anytime, lol sexxi porn star name haha, mines better! I love you and ttyl, -Ryan P.S. Fix your Computer