Trusting and Saying

Sometimes it’s hard for me to trust people. Everytime i do it seems like i’m betrayed or lied to. I really dont understand why. I even have a hard time trusting my own family. There seems to be so many lies in itself applying to my family and friends. There is atleast one or two people i trust but even them sometimes i cant say anything to. Its feel as though if i try saying something to somebody i know i freeze up and afraid they either will judge me or not care about what i say. A couple of my friends tell me things they dont tell others I’m a trusting person not to say anything and keeping it to myself. I also hold things in. My emotions all the time and what i want to say. I really dont know what to do. 

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December 7, 2009

The few things i have learnt in life. 98% of the human race are backstabbing caniving jerks who will do anything to torment or gain something. So telling other peoples secrets, and backstabbing the people they trust. Alot of people can’t grow up. I know my mother still hasn’t. She’ll bring up things that happen to me when I was a kid and throw it in my face.

December 7, 2009

But that’s life for ya. Don’t hold stuff in it’s not fun. Honestly, being blunt is the best way to be.

December 7, 2009

Ryn: I feel fine, but I know somethings not fine – and i hate doctors and try to avoid them as well. But I have to suck it up – and do it for my daughter because she needs me.

December 9, 2009

I used to be the same way. I’d hold back my everything from people. But you know what saying helped me out a lot? “It’s better to be hated for who you are, then loved for who you are not.” Isn’t it?

December 10, 2009

I understand that. The people I trusted most in my life have passed on. thank you for your note and keep being you. I’m sorry for your losses.