Happy Freakin Birthday To Me….

 Ok so it’s 7 am atm and I still have not slept and I’m tired as hell. Anyways I talked to my lil sister Megan around 1 am and she was wishing me a happy birthday *awe* it was so sweet. She was so proud of herself for being the first person to wish me a happy brithday lol. Then she goes well don’t tell Tasha I told you this but she’s thinking of coming to get you and taking you out for your birthday. I was like HELL YEA plz do. I want to go out have fun do something stupid idk just do something different for my birthday. So I have to call her sometime probly around 8 maybe. But I have a feeling none of this is gonna happen <— me being not postive though I know I’ve said I’m gonna start being positive. Okay okay happy thought and freakin positive thoughts. Oh hell who am I kidding I can’t really know anything anyway until I find out so why am I stressing my self over this. *Never happened she never called me back* knew it…….. 

Oh yea I talked to Perry and I may have another date with him for Saturday YAY. Though I found out Spencer might like me to. So kinda confused atm as to who I like better but I’m leaning towards Perry. I hope Saturday happens. I might stop in to see him later today at work yes I think i will. 

Well update later and let you know what happens wth my brithday …if its bad or good lol 

Well here’s the update about my Birthday yup I called it is going horrible *cries*. The freakin witch goes why are you moping around we don’t have the money to do anything for you. WTH didn’t say anything about that I’m just a little semi depressed I can’t spend it with anyone. Well they have the fucking money to go drink practically every night but none to atleast get me a fucking card. I would have been happy with just that I’m pretty easy to make happy but no she has to be a total bitch and sorry for my language. 

But I did get to smile for a little today one of my friends called me lol and sang me a happy birthday YAY lol it was an old song our choir used to sing in school and Jess sang it was epic hearing her Love ya girl thanks. That helps me calm down alot knowing atleast though my friends can’t be with me in person but their with me in their thoughts or calling me 🙂 ..