Confused…..

I don’t know what to do. I cant decide if i want to stay living with my sister. I mean i love her to death and everything. But with her finacee and her three kids its hard i’m not used to it even if i have been living with them for about two and half monhs. I’m usaully never home or atleast i try not to be. But honestly i dont feel like i can live with them. I dont exactly feel part of their family. I also feel like i’m a burden. I’m grateful for them letting me stay with them but her finacee and me do not get along to well and he doesnt try either to get along with me someitmes and i admitt their are times i dont try at all. He kept giving me lectures about how i was being ungrateful or how he thought i was ungrateful because i wasnt showing it. Also that I’m a mean person. It almost made me to start to cry. when he was saying this to me i was about to go into my school. I asked couple of my friend if that was true and they said hes just trying to bully you and everything. Lately he hasnt said anything to me in the last two weeks or so but he hasnt had the chance either like i said because i havent been home enough. I mean i dont stay their for free they get money for me to stay with them. So honestly i am not just staying their. I just dont know what to do whether to just move somewhere else or live with them because if i do end up staying with them longer things have to change. 

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December 10, 2009

I’ve had to live with my sister. Her stoner husband. Three dogs. Three kids. I think it’ll make you feel better to make sure you are in a comfortable position, and then get out. Just make sure you don’t rush it. In the end, you’ll feel all the better if some of that stress is lifted. As long as you’re willing to handle the different types of stress that follow. I think you can ^_^

December 11, 2009

i want to read ur entries but its so dark i can barely see 🙁

December 11, 2009

my opinion is you should leave, a home is supposed to feel like a haven, somewhere you can decompress, not a place that makes you stress out even more…. Maybe there are friends you could share an appartment with? Or you could rent a room somewhere?