Catch Up On Fall 05

So many things have been going on this semester it’s hard to recap all of them. First, Big and I are no longer friends. She came to visit one of the first wekeends of school and was just so completely different. She was rude, obnoxious, never once said thank you and virtually made me wait on her hand and foot. Not to mention she stayed four days wehn i only invited her for three, used up all the hot water, and was rude to my housemates. Had this been two years ago, I would’ve turned the other cheek, but at this point, I don’t have the energy. If she wants to treat me like crap, then let her. She lost me as a friend…I didn’t lose nearly as much as she did.

Heather and I are also not friends any more….not only are we not friends, we downright dislike each other. It started out innocently enough…she never cleaned, was always too busy to call the landlord or do chores, or do anything around the house. Then she started being rude to me, as well as the rest of the housemates, beacuse she was stressed out about school or applying to grad schools. Big deal. I’m stressed out of my mind, and I never bitched her out they way she did to me. Finally, the last straw, I found out that she was telling Mike and my friends that I’m a bitch. I can’t even comphrehend doing that. Not only that, but she was bad-mouthing me to Mike while Mike and I were fighting. What exactly was she trying to accomplish by doing that?! I felt so hurt and so angry…so I basically called her an evil troll and told her that my friends and Mike didn’t like her. We’re obviously no longer on speaking terms.

Mike and I broke up this weekend. He was in one of his lovely black moods all day last Friday. I had a friend over and was trying to entertain her, but then kept going upstairs to my room (where Mike had holed himself up and was acting antisocial) to see if everything was OK with Mike, since he was acting really cold. Things only got worse when a bunch of us were walking  to the bars and he simply wouldn’t speak to me or touch me. While we were all standing outside of Sports Bar I got so fed up I simply walked back home with Matt, who was also in a crummy mood.

I was so upset that Mike randomly was being so cruel to me (again) that I packed up all of his stuff and placed it outside my room. I wrote him a note telling him how much he hurts me when he randomly gets into one of his foul moods and basically told him to take his stuff and leave. I then turned off my cell phone and listened to "Moonlight Sonata" repeatedly until I was halfway asleep. At that point Mike came back to my house and saw his stuff sitting in the hallway. At that point he started throwing things and punched a hole in my wall. I let him in the room, which I had locked, because I was afraid of him doing any more damage to my house and/or waking up my housemates. It was the first time I’d ever been afraid of Mike…When he stomped into my room I honestly gave myself a 50/50 chance of being hit. We yelled at each other, nothing really got resolved, and I ended up letting him stay the night because he was too drunk to go anywhere else.

The rest of Saturday I spent with the Delta Iotas, who I ended up telling what had happened the night before. Lauren and Erin were especially sweet…they came over to my house before dinner and talked to me…it made me feel a lot better. On Saturday night the Delta Iotas and I went out to dinner, Greek God, and the Delta Chi mixer. It was nice to be back at a mixer, since Mike had previously been upset at the idea of me going to mixers….but on the other hand I was in a dirty house, drinking some red concoction out of a plastic cup while drunken frat boys leered at me. Lauren got into a fight with a leering frat boy and ended up throwing punch in his face. Then Erin and I got into a minor fight. Then Nicole and Erin got into a fight. then we all arrived at Sports Bar where half the group was no longer speaking to each other. I ran into Mike, who was touching me and talking to me…it kind of pissed me off. Now I want you to leave me alone, and now you decide to act like a boyfriend?? Erin went home with her old hook-up buddy, and Lauren, Lisa and I were driven home by Tanya (who randomly appeared at the bar). We stayed up until 4 am talking, eating grilled cheese and soup when erin finally decided to come back to my house (her hook-up buddy kicked her out). I put Mike in the spare room upstairs, Erin, Lauren and I slept in my bed, and Lisa slept on the futon…..It was nice to be sleeping with my pledge sisters…I felt safe and actually slept pretty well, for the four hours that I got sleep.

The next morning I prepared the sorority brunch, which went pretty well except that we ran out of cream cheese. I called Mike and asked to speak to him after the brunch. Mike and I are dating again, but it kind of just doesn’t feel the same. I love him, but I’m not happy and I’m not quite sure what to do.

It’s sad, but it’s my last year in college and I feel like I just want it to end….which is a real let-down because I was really looking forward to this year…