Found Len’s Number :D

Dear Diary,

After rereading old e-mails from Len, I cam across one he sent using his phone 😀 HURRAH! I should have called, thinking about it now, but I just text him, "Hey Len! It’s Brett :)" Originally I put, "Hey! Is this Len? Its Brett. I searched old e-mail and found your number :)" but I realized that looked a) desperate and b) needy. Anywho, he text me back and we made small chat until he said he was at visiting family. I told him I would call him today. I want to call him when I wake up 🙁 But, I know it would be better to call around 5:30pm. I believe he gets off work at 5pm so that will give him time to do whatever. Maybe I can con him into getting a late dinner or movie?

I don’t know if anyone can tell, but, I am really excited about seeing Len again. I doubt he is as excited as I am, seeing as I just contacted him out of the blue.

I was doing some writing today 🙂 I’m almost done with the 10th page of my novel. I’m debating if I want to post anything on opendiary or not.

Oh, I got a haircut, dyed my hair and eyebrows, and steam/exfoliated my face yesterday. I’m feelings good 🙂 Its helps rejuvenate the soul to change yourself once in a while. I also shaped my eyebrows and not only do I look better but I look younger. Oh, and I whitened my teeth also. I noticed they were starting to lose their shine and look a little dull. I plucked out my nose hairs about a week ago so my nose is still looking good 🙂 And I shaved yesterday. I just feel fresh 🙂 The OD picture is me, taken after all my freshness happened yesterday 🙂

I can tell I look good because a guest a work winked at me and asked if I would be here all night. 🙂

Rachel and Sarah went to the midnight opening of Harry Potter 🙂 I can only imagine how crazy they are right now. They are complete Harry Potter nutcases.

As told in my previous entry about the cars and getting pizza, I drew the scene at work, on a dry-eraser board, and people thought it was hilarious! I used to draw ever day on the board, when I first started working here, and now I rarely draw… at all. I have this painting I was working on for Ray, before he dumped me, because he wanted me to paint my feelings for him. Its gay oriented, a male angel holding up a merman. He didn’t know about it, I was going to surprise him. I was thinking of just forgetting about it, but, I think I will finish it. I don’t have to keep it, I could just give it away to a random gay person I know. I know I wont want to keep it, but, the thought behind it is beautiful so I do want to finish it; but its not a priority.

JHenry painted me a star for my birthday a couple years ago. I have it stored in the shed because I change the pictures I have hanging up and cycle them. Part of me wants to hang it on my wall but another part of me wants to not be sad ever time I walk into my room. Its been on my mind lately. Do I want to hang his painting? I don’t think I want the reminder of him because I think about him enough as is. His memorial is this weekend…

I asked his sister-in-law if she could talk to the family for me. I painted him a demon with a snake for a penis, it was a birthday present for Jhenry, and I asked if there was a way I could have it. She said she thinks she remembers seeing it and told me she wasn’t sure because his family is holding-on dearly to his things. Understandable. I wonder if they don’t want to give it to me now, would it be rude to ask them to leave it in their will for me?

Its a strange feeling knowing I have a piece of art painted by a man who committed suicide. His thoughts and ideas are in the painting. I wonder if I will look at it differently when I decided to get it from the shed.

Sincerely,

The Writer