Numb

A Numbing Reality

With each prick of the skin,
I become a bit number,
It hurt at first,
And it kept getting worse,
Until I finally felt nothing at all.
What is emotion?
I no longer know.
Is it something I feel?
Is it something I show?
I have forgotten it all.
My heart pounds,
Such a hollow sound.
Things seemed perfect,
When you broke me in two,
I held it together,
For what else could I do?
Your demons don’t scare me,
I have seen them before,
They talk to me in my sleep,
In my hallways they creep,
I know that they love me too.
Wanting me to be evil,
And give in to their words,
But I will just ignore the hurt,
I know that this is not all I’m worth.
I am important to this world,
And I will show it to you,
I will one day smile again,
And I will make you smile too.
Making our fairytale a reality,
Living in our castle in the sky,
Watching dragons in the air,
Never having a reason to cry,
Never again wishing to die.

-Kara-

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So yeah…sorry i haven’t written for a while.

I went to Georgia (the state) for about a week with my friend Tarra…that was fun. We swam everyday in a lake…we were camping. Me and her had to save her dad….he had an asthma attack or spasm or something in the water and we swam out and dragged him back to shore. The funny thing is I am a terrible swimmer and I told them I would probably be the one that would need saving, lol.

I have been in a rather bad mood for the last week. Everyone has been yelling at me and me and Jacob have been fighting. I don’t know how to take it. /: Maybe I just need to learn to deal with things better.

I figured out why we cry. It has to do with a flow of things…and letting emotions flow out of you like water…hence tears…yeah.

I went to see The Last Airbender today….with my parents and sis…which is stupid, because I am grounded but I got to go with them. It was an okay movie, I mean…the movie itself was great, just not long enough…it only did book one…which is Water…so there is definitely gonna be at least 2 if not 3 more movies.

I hit the door earlier with my hand because my sister kept calling me a monster. And I hit the ridgy thing on it with my palm and it hurts like hell now. >_< I am stupid. Then I hit the wall a few times. Lol, argh.

It is Independence Day and I am not going to watch fireworks for the first year ever. How….Delightful. xP

I’ll write again soon… ^_^

-Kara-