Life Recently

Well…i’m out of school for the summer. Good I guess. I hate being at home all the time though. -.-

I’ve been playing this free MMO, that is way better than runescape and pretty damn close to WoW. It’s pretty fun.

I’ve only been playing it for about two weeks and i’m almost a level 30 healer. Jacob and I have been playing it together.

I went with him to a cookout thing today. He is in this program for "troubled" kids…but he’s only in it for money help and cuz his family is completey fucked up; he’s not the…um…"troubled" one..lols, right. But yeah, and at the cookout I saw this guy that I had known since I was younger…and he just got out of jail and he’s living in a group home. We talked a bit. He is trying to turn his life around, jail really changed him. I offered to tutor him by phone for his GED program he’s taking this summer. Gave him my phone number. My dad isn’t happy. I was like…dad, i’m just trying to help someone. /: But I get his point, but if he knew half the shit I put up with daily, he’d be like..lols XD Not to mention what he puts me through himself. God. Fucktards.

I got my Final scores back. I got 96% in Biology…which I actually thought i’d do better in.

I got a fucking 99% in Civics. What the fuck!? My teacher called me the night before and told me that he could see me sitting in his room in the morning and making a 100% on the test….well…i missed one question. Argh. The teachers in the room administering were laughing at me. I went over it throughout the whole 3-4 hour time we had to do it. I kept looking over it and looking over it. Hell, i was shooting for a 92, so I did fucking awesome. XD! Sorry for the cursing, I don’t know why but I just feel like being "expressive" at the moment. =P

We got yearbooks a few weeks ago. We had a contest to see whose picture would get on the front. I won. Here’s a picture, if it works. 😀

Yeah…i whited out the name of my school, just cuz…i haven’t given out the name of my school yet and yeah. Dunno. Not in the mood to get yelled at by my mom or anything, if she happens to see it. =P But we are the "Wolves" if you couldn’t tell.

Hmm….I think i had more to say but I don’t remember anymore. OH!

GOD DAMN…how could I forget. Lol

Last night I got to hear Jacob’s dad and Jacob flip out. Like…his dad reminds me of my dad a lot, when he gets fucking pissed off. It was kind of scary actually. So, Jacob’s dad wants to send Liz (jacob’s little sister) to the mental hospital for cutting/burning herself. Jacob has been to the mental hospital and he is NOT going to let her go. It fucked him up so much. v.v He was so scared and he didn’t know if he was going to see his mom or dad again and he was a little kid and all alone. That’s why he’s so alone now I guess…or feels it anyway. I’ve been getting up early and staying up late just so he won’t be alone. I don’t want him to be alone. I love him.

I guess i’m just a person who thinks they need to fix things. I don’t know. Is that a bad thing? Even if I am fucked up too?

Jacob scared me though..he told his dad that if he sent Liz to the mental hospital he would "blow his goddamn brains out"….and i feel horrible for both of them. I think I have this fucking issue where I pick up feelings from other people. I mean, you know how music can influence some peoples moods (especially jacob’s…you can tell his mood by his music) well…anyway, i think my mood is influenced by the people I am around. Maybe it’s just that i’m good at sympathizing..or empathizing…dunno.

I miss my big brother. In 9 days it will have been 2 years since he died. Sigh.

On a positive note, I have a sort of new found hope for humanity…as a whole anyway. I got inspired by what else other than a OMG, Bette Midler song. LOL, i know right? You might not even know who that is…o.O Dunno. She’s an older singer…and yeah, she’s really inspirational in the aspect that I heard one of her songs and it made me think…if you look at humanity all together and we all sing a note…then we aren’t as fucked up as you might think. More of us are good than bad. If you look at a person and another person, they could be friends…even though they are at war with each other…and from a distance, we can’t comprehend what all the fighting is for. From a distance this all means something…but I don’t know what. Guess i’ll find out one day.

I’m listening to Eminem. =P

Anyway…dunno. I guess my life’s not as fucked up as a lot of people’s. Maybe i’m just the cause of all the hell I face. Who knows.

ALSO, i’ve been looking on Craiglist for a babysitting job. Found one that looks promising..tried calling but no one answered. Emailed, hoping to get the job. I need some form of income. Jacob wants to get up enough money for me, him, his dad, and liz to go to the waterpark. May i just say, i only weigh 120 and i’ll be the fattest one there. >.< Pisses me off. I hate my body. XD But they are a bunch of skinny asses. Jacob is 6 foot 7 and he weighs 140…o.O He has a lot of muscle though. Liz has to weigh like 100 lbs…i dunno. And his dad is pretty tall but a little bit more normalish looking. Lols…idk.

Well…Off to continue living. Until next time….

-Kara-