Week ???

I think this is week 10 (of 12) I’ve missed countless classes and have missed 2 assignments (three if  I miss the one tomorrow, which is very likely) I plan on not going to college tomorrow so I can catch up and get the assignments in. I have 4 essays due one in 1.5 weeks the next in 2 weeks and the following 2 in 2.5 weeks. I haven’t started any of them!

By the end of tomorrow I WILL have 3 assignments and at least 800-1000 words of a 3000 word essay done. Its ambitious but I need to start really working! plus I’m gonna go to the library in college, its too easy to get distracted at home!

Other than college everything else is ok-ish. Still reeling from my nanny dying, hard to believe how much I miss her. I keep remembering the night after she died, we had her laid out at home and we stayed with her. I woke up next morning and forgot for a split second…then I saw my mam sitting in the corner looking exhausted and hear-broken. It is the worst thing I’ve ever seen…worse than seeing my nanny die. The aftermath was so much harder then that.

It’s crazy how many tears can come from one person…and they’re still coming

Bye for now

-Aoife