Die. Ary. If tumies could talk.

I feel the odd feeling to write.  To say someting… or work on something, I don’t know.. I feel so strange lately, like… something isn’t balanced inside of me… Maybe its the Plan -B talking? I don’t know… It just feel so strange.  Today I was outrageously anzy,  nearly everything made me jump!! and for some odd reason Small things were getting to me.. I wasn’t sure why either… I was just outrageously emotional too!! which is odd..

I can usually tell when someone is joking with me… but today when someone said something I felt down or something, and top things off… I didn’t want to do ANYTHING.  I guess it started in the morning when I was waken up at roughly 10am to clean the house… my brother was coming over… and for some ODD reason the house just HAD to be cleaned. 

So up I go.. to Clean clean clean… and once done my brother shows and I was still slightly moody but not showing it… so my aunt gets to cooking… and leaves outside… completely forgetting the chicken on the stove!! So when she comes back and its burning she Screams at me!! Like it was MY responsability and as if it had REALLY burnt up completely T__T Only the Skin fried… NOT anything else.. so.. despite my anger I got up and went and fixed the burnt chicken by removing the burnt part and re cooking it to give it a normal taste. 

Carlos came over shortly after that… and as if she HAD to blame it on me… she went on boasting about me not paying attention to the burning food… Fuck.. I wasn’t  in the mood for that crap but still I shrugged and laughed along with them… What ever…

Anyway… Carlos spent the day here and I was happy <3 cause I was spending time with him.  =/ only odd thing is that for a moment I actually hated my cat o_o; Yeah… she was curled up with him and such and she looked so comfortable in his arms that I couldn’t help it. 

I hung up a bit of cloths… and stuff.. I had been wondering where all my cloths had gone.. cause For some reason I was getting none of it back but everyone else was… so there it all was… but what ever.. I wasn’t going to think about it. 

Sooo for a while I was lazy, just hung around with Carlos and such… but I really wasn’t feeling good all the time!! My stomach has been tossing and turning and wanting to eat me alive all day long!! but I didn’t complain o_o;; cause theres no reason too…  so then… yeah…

As usual I got stuck doing dinner… had to go to the store to get meat cause they wanted "burgers"… and so Carlos took me, stuff just felt odd after that… I don’t know If I’m catching a stomach flu or what but my stomach started acting up and my head started to spin and blah!! I feel so sick…

When we got home I got to cooking making burgers for everyone.  No one complained, I guess it was all good,

Carlos had to go home… he had to work.  So we talked… and he mentioned lots of things that were interesting… Like moving in together… and… I have to admit this one made me slightly happy.  Having kids… and the way our behavior would be.  He tells me I act different around him… like when its just us two and then when we are with my family.  I don’t notice it.. but I guess other people can.  I tend to be a lot more melow then I’m somewhere where the sound levels are not that loud, and when there with me… but uhg… its just so hard to get any peace in this house!!….

So yeah.. he went home… and after a while I came online… to type this out… cause I feel like I need to write something and I’m not sure why I feel so sick… it could be the stomach flu… and it could also be that my blood pressure is off… or that I’m getting my period way to early… but who knows… I’m not spotting or anything like that… so I doubt its the period.  Anyway… I better get to bed.. I"m yawning now.. .meaning I’m getting tired… and maybe… JUST maybe… the stomach pain will relent and actually let me catch some z’s

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