Dear Die-ary, its all been pretty good. =)

Today I went out on yet another date with AF Hottie =) and we kissed. ^.^ Yayness!! 

Complete and utter happiness! I swear what more can I ask For?  he is super sweet, does not drink or smoke or do drugs OR roids.  =)  He treats me SOOO nice that it just cheers me up to spend time with him.  

So far we’ve seen a few movies together!  First was that Phelmar 123 then Year One, after that Transformers 2 =) ((Over at KCMO ^.^ where the first kiss happened Yayness! xD )) Then today we watched Public Enemy, and that my friends Was the SECOND Kiss =D  Yup!!! 

Oh yeah, btw if you get the chance to go watch the movie DO SO!  Totally Worth it!! xD

Anyway so yeah ^.^ Kiss!  They have both been the innocent kind of kiss =)  Which makes for ubber cute!! Seriously, he doens’t try to suck my FACE off or suffocate me with his tongue!! On contrair!  He just lightly presses a kiss to my lips and thats it.  He holds my hand and he doens’t drag me, but follows or lightly pulls me in which direction he wants to go, and if I refuse he follows along with me =) 

Dear god Am I falling for him this easily?  He is a massive sweet heart!  But I’m not ganna get stupid ^.~  I mean he’s older and I’m sure he thinks about more serious things than the younger "men" out there.  But still you know.. can’t let your guard down.  I’m ganna play my cards right here.  Not ganna go all WOOT right off the bat.  Just ganna play it cool.  Be Observant, you know Incognito lol.

I dont think I’ve ever know anyone that treats me the way he does.  I mean yeah sure the jerk would be nice, but in a rough way, and this guy…. he’s just nice all over.  Never thought I’d fall for someone like this.  I mean we’ve been going out for about a month now and well… what do you know.  =) We haven’t had sex, not even talked about it and I’m Ok with it.  I Dont want to have sex with him, not yet at least.  I mean when we get closer and we know each other better then ok.  I’ll see about it then.

Anyway, tomorrow is our Nations Birthday!  And what am I going to be doing you ask?!  Well Enjoying my weekend at Worlds of Fun, where AF Hottie will Catch up after he’s done with his duties at the base ((They are having some bbq thing and he got stuck on duty until 2 =/ bummer)) anyway so he’s going to catch up to me up there and We are ganna spend the day together.  he’s ganna meet my mum and such.  He already knows the kids (Cindy, Doido, and Chris) so just mom will be a new face.  =/ wonder how thats going to work out lol Mom with her little english speaking and Him with not a single Spanish word known.  

Ahh well…  I Hope all goes well.  KCMO!!! yayness.  I’m thinking of dressing as UBBER cute as possible.  And all just to look good for him.  Cause he makes me get butterflies ^.^ 

I Seriously never thought anything like this would happen between me and anyone else.  Cause I was sooo caught up with Carlos.  But now that he’s out of the picture, boy am I feeling as if this Weight was pulled off my shoulders.  I’m not being dragged down anymore, i’m in a happy mood and I’m bouncy.  I dont cry anymore and I’m feeling better everyday.  The constant depression… Well it lingers everynow and then but for the most part its gone!  

Anyway, to report on weight loss =) I’m stuck at about 167 right now.  But its been a horrible week so far.  Had takeout and such cause mom wanted this and that and blah blah.  But for the most part I’ve been doing good.  Think I might buckle down this coming week and just have as little as possible.  Need at least two pounds gone this week.  Which brings me to a happy note! I weigh Less than Rosie does now.  How awsome is that!!!  I mean GOD I’ve weighed more than she has for AGES and now, I’m finally lower than she is!! Oh god what on Earth is this!?!  

Oh and not to mention I’m getting more Hours at work starting on the 15!!! That plus a raise!! ^-^ Which is greatly welcomed.  Half of the year is gone and things seem to be going ok so far, besides the minor set back and the GRRR I’m so mad a few weeks ago.  Guess it was just a matter of getting the idea that it would never work out between us in to my head to get me to move on.  Oh well.

So yeah, here’s some Thinspo.  ^.~ Enjoy.

                       

    

         

                                    

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