08/13/2010

The past few nights have been so stressful on me.  Its come to the point of fearing sleep.  For almost 3 weeks now I’ve been having the most vivid and strange dreams possible.  Both scary and confusing or just plain strange.  I’ve woken up in tears and sobs that I’ve had to calm on my own, unless I’m in his arms… He wont let me go.  He’ll hold me close and tell me it will all be ok and that he’s there to hold me and he wont let go. 

"I’ve got you, dont worry… I’ve got you."

I’m secure in his arms, even when my dreams try to get me.  When my dreams are screaming for attention.  Draining my energy and forcing me to fear the time when I have to close my eyes.  A few nights ago while sleeping and curled up against him I had the most horrid of dreams.  Kuri (Mike) was on a trip with me, and we were not very happy, slightly upset with each other and just not happy. When the plane landed we had turbulence that made us jump everywhere.  Upset, we exited and he told me we would be staying in his sisters home, but to get there we had to get on a bus.  I dont remember the ride but I remember getting off the bus and looking around.  the scene looked like that of a horror film.  A dingy little town, Ran down gas station, old laundry mat place very dimly lit, and the house we were suppose to stay in.  Colored in a sandy color the house was an eyesore.  But it was where we had to stay… thats when his psycho sister burst out with a gun and tried to shoot us for trespassing on to her property.  After K calmed her down she let us in to the house where K went in to a room and sent the kids off to a new room cause we were gonna sleep on the bunk beds.

Worried that my mom didnt know where I was I went outside to try and call her but my phone had no signal, nothing at all.  Angry that I had to stay there longer and not be home I went back inside and found that Ks sister was on one of the beds, she waved me over and said "You’re sleeping here with me or with the dogs." I didnt want her chasing me with the gun so I climbed in to the bunk bed and closed my eyes trying to get some sleep… but she started to fondle my boobs really bad.  To the point where she made me cry with frustration and scream in pain.  Eventually she stopped and I was allowed to sleep for a bit.  Until she started to fondle me again! this time taking a much more sexual approach!  angry I turned and sucker punched her right in the face. Mad at me she roared out of the bed and went to the kitchen which was right off the side of the bedroom and I could see her putting a pot of hot oil on to the fire.  Terrified I turned back to the bed to try and grab something to beat her with but K was there and he said "Dont! She’ll burn you!"  But i didnt care, I ran out and she threw the oil and missed, only getting bits of it on to my skin. 

Outside of the house I breathed in the air and ran as fast as I could only to find that a station wagon had crashed right outside the laundry mat with a woman inside!  And the woman looked dead and pale and terrible.  I quickly ran to it, trying to be of aid but they were still chasing me!  I turned back to see them, knew I Should help but I didnt have time!  At that time i turned to look back at the car and the body was gone.  Only a trail of blood was left behind and as my eyes followed it arms wrapped around me, pulling me.  Still following the blood trail up on to a bill board that was filled with blood as if someone had taken the corpse and tried to scribble something with it.  But I couldnt read what it said!!! I woke up!  Crying as the voices said.  "You’re not leaving, you’re going to be such a pretty bride…"

So asside from that dream waking me up in tears I’ve had others where things are just not normal… -sighs- who knows now adays.

~Anti~

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