Torned

I am torned right now. No good news has come my way so far. Time is already ticking and I need to make a decision very soon. Should I go or should I stay? I still would want to keep my options open but I am dying to go home to my folks too. I worry and sad that the 2thou visa didn’t go very far for him and it has earned me only 60thou. So he is short by 400thou.

My golly! This is the main reason why I hated saying yes to things I am not sure of in the first place. I hate this feeling of owing some money though he said I need not worry myself with it. I want ot go back here but not in this place. I want a pleasant one where it promises all aspects of personal growth.

I am sick and tired of nurturing feeling of hate against people and being low at the end of the day. i want an environment of respect.Gosh…hope good news will come very soon….