9th of June 2011

12:30 noon here in Bahrain. Today is the 9th of June and yesterday was my birthday. It was like any ordinary day but I decided to take a half day and slept the whole afternoon. I felt sadness in my heart as previously in Manila, my birthday was like the occassion of all occassions. It was like the most special one as every one remembers it.

It was like a family affair. From birth til the last birthday I spent with my folks, my day was really my day. The only birthday I didn’t stay at home was during my first semester in college. The rest was like a home affair. It was always a decision or call a tradition that I never went to school or work. it was like just me and my family. My cellular phone was overcrowding with greetings and I had a hard time managing to answer each message.

Last year, it was very fortunate that my birthday landed on a day which was pleasant. Class was my favorite and my class even managed to provide me with a small party. I had lots of gifts and I was touched by their gesture. Today, I remebered yesterday. A couple of students greeted but it wasn’t like from the heart. I felt invisible then. As I gave each one a chocolate while they are taking the class, only once have I heard a "thank you" from those I have remembered to give. It was like a feeling of "how I wished I have never exerted an effort to rush to the grocery to buy for you." It was like more of being taken for granted.

Today, my boss pretended that he was angry but later on, he remebered me by giving me a cake which i shared with the others in the office. I pity him now that I felt I was ungrateful since it wasn’t comensurate enough for all I have done for him in this office. hahahah….

Soon, given the right opportunity, i will be leaving this company. I want to come home and spend time with my folks. the weather now in Manila is rainy, and how I missed the weather which entailed me to stay up in bed and stare at nothingness. Today is the end of the week and my honey promised me to a special dinner date in which he saved especially for the occassion. Well we worked last night til 12 at the resto just to finish the fucking project so I guess we deserve to unwine and relax a bit.