This woman…

is gonna drive me crazy. She’s become one of my best friends. I told her I liked her. She said she thinks we should just be friends for now and keep doing what we’re doing. I don’t know if that meant there was never a chance of us being a unit or if she just wanted to keep doing what we’ve been doing and let things develop naturally.

All I know is that I love being around this girl. I know we’re just friends, but it kills me when we go out and she starts flirting with other guys. She only does this when she gets really drunk. It just pains me, because I really like her. I like her on every level. I’m more than happy to go out with her as a friend, but I don’t know how to react when she starts flirting with other guys. 

I know. I KNOW that because she flirts with other guys around me, I should just give up on any chance of us being together. I know this is what I would do under normal circumstances, but I can’t. I love her company and I’m happy just to be around her in any capacity. She’s one of my best friends.

Egh, there’s so much more I could say, but I don’t even feel like talking about this anymore. I’m so fucking confused. She makes me the happiest man and the most depressed man all at the same time. I don’t even know how that’s possible.