Now

First entry of 2006, I think. I have written a couple already, but didn’t post them. Resolutions all along the "live each day as if it’s your last," line, as they’re the only type I might be able to keep. I think this year will be a good one. It’s had a better start then last year, at least. Haven’t s/h-ed since November last year, where as my first cut of last year was only a matter of hours after midnight. Pretty impressive, I think.

I don’t really know what to put. Think I’m going out tonight, dispite it being a wednesday. I know, get me and my hectic social life. Went shopping with mum today and bought a Paw Play calender and a yellow submarine clip purse, looks most snazzy

  <— but cuter in real life!

Currently obsessed with The Shins, especially the song Saint Simon. Is too catchy for words. It makes me happy.

I think I’ve been quite happy in general recently. It makes a change, I guess. Being happy is most enjoyable. I think when I learnt to accept that I will never be 100% happy all the time, I started to feel more generally upbeat. Something about the freedom to be unhappy is quite liberating, I think. It’s like, just because I’m not feeling so great right now, doesn’t mean I’ve slipped back into depression and I’m relapsing, it just means I’m human, and I’ll be feeling ok again soon… it allows you to become happy again without feeling like you have to sift through years of personal trauma until you’ve found the reason you’re unhappy and then build up back to you’re "happy place" again. I don’t know if I’m making sense. I make sense to me, and that’s all that matters sometimes. I just like where I am at the moment. I know everything will be changing soon, but change can be good too.

I think I’ll leave it there before I ramble on too much.

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