ily – January 31st 2011

SoO… its been awhile. HA!  Been so stinkin broke that my internet and cable got shut off at home.. blahhh. Sucks, becuz usually if im not watch tv im online.. lol, so things have been pretty boring over there.

((JAN 31st)) My title.. lets just jump right into that. I worked .. and while i was at work Bobby calls.. he goes "I just wanted to call and say i heart you" (( we always say heart, becuz heart is like like.. but who just says i like you.. lol)) i told him "i kno you do" and he says "Thats all i wanted have a good day at work baby." so we get off the phone.. we talked a few times thru-out the day and then he stopped at my house becuz i got off work early.. and we just talked for about an hr and wrestled around (kaydence was napping) and then he had to leave for work.. around 9:30PM he calls and 1st thing he says when i answer is "I love you" My heart flutterd a lil.. actually i think it dropped into the bottom of my stomach. I said " Yeah? you LOVE me??" he replies "Yes baby, i love you." my smile was ridic.. and at the same time i didnt know what to say to it. So we have our convo, and then he goes to get off the phone and says "I will stop by after a bit.. i love you baby" i said "i love you too.." and hung up then freaked out.

I do love him.. I mean, i extremly care about him and dont want to lose him.. and he is SUPER important to me. Im not in love with him tho.. not yet anyways… but i can say i do love him.. 2months… smh.. 2months, and he said he loved me.. i think im still in shock, only becuz we had the conversation about ‘love’ and we both agreed it wouldnt be easy to love anytime soon… so when he said it.. my heart kinda melted.. He loves me, awe.

Kaydence is doing good. I cant believe how dang big she is. *2months old already* Ahhhh. lol. I took videos of her smiling and laughing at me a few days ago from my phone, so once i figure out how to put them from my phone onto the computer, thennn i will post them. && i have TONS of pictures i wish i just had internet at home.. lol, it would be a lot easier to get things uploaded and in order. I dont expect to have it back on anytime soon bcuz my job blows in the winter time.. AND we’ve had tons of big storms in the past couple weeks.. so i aint making any money to pay it. Katie said sumthing bout turning it on with her income tax check.. but we will see. Kaydence goes to the doctor tomorrow for her shots. Im a little nervous.. i dont wanna see her cry, so im hoping she stays strong for me. As far as the colic stuff goes, shes been doing SO good>>knock on wood, but she never gets fussy like that anymore becuz of it.. soOo im happy about that.

oOo and i forgot.. Saturday, jan 29th.. my 1st night away from KaYdence.. Gayle kept her so me and bobby could spend sumtime for the first time since we’ve been dating. Ahhhh.. I loved my time with Bobby dont get me wrong, but OMG.. i didnt sleep for shit. I tossed and turned becuz Kaydence wasnt there and i just kept wakin up and looking over to see her, and she just wasnt there.. i woke up at 8am for good.. i just couldnt rest.. i woke bobby up at about 10 and told him i had to get my baby.. i couldnt do it any longer.. lmao. So i picked her up sunday morning, well actually we hung out over Gayles for most the day.. and then came home and had mommy daughter time.. we snuggled like all day, I LOVED IT.

<3 Angel