“Ill fix it, want steak dinner?”

So im going to take this entry back a few days since i didnt write about it.. then bring it up to speed. Might be graphic. lol.

Monday September19th, after not hearing much from Bobby all weekend.. i was a lil pissed off at him. He ended up texting me from a friends phone & i was super excited to finally hear from him but i had to tell him what was on my mind. So i told him i was mad…and so on, & that i didnt think he made me feel like i was on his list of important. He said i was, but i said i he doesnt make me feel like it. So he writes bck. "Been busy work and kids, Ill fix it, want steak dinner?" i replied "yeah" of course.. and awaited his arrival. SoOo it took him forever to even make it here to my house, which is fine he said he had to take oreo (his dog) to vet with his mom becuz sumthing happend to him.. So when he finally gets here he comes in with 2bags of groceries.. Opens them and there are 2big ass porter house steaks, mushrooms, onion, sour cream, potatoes, mac & cheese, and …… whip cream in a spray can. *haha* He said that was for me. LoL.. so of course my smile by this time was pretty endless. He cooked, and we talked as he cooked.. tryed to get a lil serious with him about our relationship but didnt wanna ruin how good things were going at the moment.. But i said what i had to say and i hoped that the way he was being at this moment would last forever.

We sat down and ate dinner.. Got full as hell.. it was SO good. One of the best dinners i had in a longggg time. So once we got done he pulled out the bed and turn netflix on and i came up to check on Kaydence who was already in bed and threw sum pj’s on. (Shorts, bcuz the first time we had sex he goes "why dont you put some shorts on or sumthing" right before we did it.. lol) i come back down and lay with him and it didnt take but a couple mins before we were kissing. He says "Take yor shirt off stay awhile" hahaha.. as he’s trying to undo my bra. & Before i knew it i was all the way naked and he was kissing down my stomach.. OMG, it was amazing. Its not often Bobby eats coochie.. so i was cherrishing everrrry minute of it. & he was teasing me, and biting my thighs and omg, driving me crazy.. The sex was amazing.. ((it always is)) Just thinking about it makes me want him.. i cant even begin to describe the feelings in my body. He makes me feel like ive never felt before. && by the end of this night i was 110% sure he loves me.. and he wants to be with me.

Tuesday morning we wake up.. i get Kaydence and myself ready.. he gets ready.. we leave. I was off to work and he had to take his buddy to court. I finally gave him his sim card for his phone and things were great.. he called me like 10mins after he left and it was nice to get a call.. i miss him calling. So i was excited he has a phone now ill be hearing from him more often. That day was good.. he called frequently, things were cool.

Wednesday nothing exciting happend.

Thursday I didnt hear from bobby until after 1pm.. and then once i did, he didnt say much. We had a lil text convo, and then around 3 he wrote i cant stay awake. At 6 i wrote, "so i take it ur still sleeping?" no reply.. i called around 7, no answer.. 9 sent a text, no reply.. i finally gave up, wrote him before i went to bed "idk whats more frustrating.. you not having a phone n not calling, or you being able to call but not wanting too. I hope your ok i love you incase you care (i said incase you care becuz he once said that to me, and its like a lil inside joke)"

Friday .. woke up went to work.. and about 12:30 he text me from the computer. "Log onto aim, it wont let me message u and my phone isnt working" unfortunatly i was working and didnt see that message. So about 12:45 he writes "Ok then im leaving to go there ill let you kno what happens. And sorry about not getting ahold of you yesterday" I was confused. For one, leaving to go where?!?!?!?!?! That had me worried.. like ur gunna let me kno what happens with what? so i tried calling his moms house thinking if he was on puter thats where hed be, but no.. he wasnt.. So here it is

Saturday and i still havent heard from him. Im guessing where ever he went to go didnt go so well?! Or he’s just being his normal self and not trying to contact me. Cause as i stated before im last on his list of important! Fucking frustrated with him. I can only talk and tell him so much about how i feel and how i need things to be better… if he doesnt listen i have no fucking idea what to do.

Other news. Kaydence really likes going to daycare, but they really piss me off. There’s been times when ill come pick her up and she will be passed out in a walker.. the daycare lady sitting on her ass.. and my poor babys head is just hanging like WTF! Put her ass in bed. Ive asked the lady what the deal was and once she said kaydence wouldnt sleep in her crib.. but assured me she JUST fell to sleep and another time she said she just fell asleep i didnt even notice. REALLY?! So, if she JUST fell to sleep why does she have imprints on her skin from how her body and face is laying. Friday when i picked her up i noticed she had a black eye. Its fine, im not complaing i kno there are 8other kids in there, sum older then her… and kids do that, kids get hurt.. and crap, kaydence could have fell on her own and did it who knos.. but do you kno when i asked about it she looked just as surprised as me to see it.. she said she didnt kno how it happend.. she didnt see anything. Blah. I really wish i was rich about now so i could change her daycares. But honestly.. im prob not gunna be happy with any place i take her.

– AnJ Marie