hello again
I’m back again. Probably momentarily again. I have some things to write about that are frustrating me. Things that I increasingly feel I cannot or should not share with friends because they are either tired of hearing my thoughts and opinions, or just thoughts that maybe I shouldn’t be sharing with anyone really.
So a list of topics (can’t fall asleep, so figured I’d come update atleast one topic)
1. old therapist gone, made decent progress with her, meeting new one on wednesday.
So I’ve been seeing a psychologist about twice a month since mid summer. We made some pretty good progress I think. However; she was only at that practice for 6 months or something. So I’m seeing someone new now, I meet her this week. I made progress in that I believe in my self and my skills more. And I actually think I’m a smart person, I stand up for myself a little more now, although still working on that a bit. I’ve been feeling a bit shite about myself lately though, so hopefully something I can start to deal with this week with the new girl. Been feeling lonely, hopeless about relationships and men, and missing having a boyfriend a lot.
2. my sisters increasing intolerance for people that she thinks make stupid decisions
3. my distance from family
4. dating experiences and them turning into fears
5. being off the antidepressants
I’ve been off the Wellbutrin for probably three months now. I think I’m mostly ok off it. I did learn a fair bit with the psychologist this summer so I think I’m coping fairly well on my own right now. I’m glad to be off if just for the sake of I don’t like being permanently medicated.
6. School
I’m so damn tired of school. I’ve has enough, I don’t care anymore, it’s my last priority. I can’t wait to be finished, hopefully in June 2014.
7. Friends (we will call one friend Agony, and the other one Volatile)
8. Honesty
9. Loneliness (recent weekend away with family)
10. life in general.
I’m even putting a reminder in my phone to come back tomorrow and explain these topics. My heart hurts a lot lately, and I had forgotten about this place. And I know getting the words down on the page always relieves the pain a little bit.