What In The Crazy Nightmares! 😨

I think my personal fears are manifesting in my dreams.  That or just my stress level is affecting the way I sleep.

I had 2 nightmares last night and very early this morning.

The first nightmare, I was sitting in a gas station with my husband and a friend (for which I’ve never seen in my life).  I remember feeling like I was out of place and unwelcome.  Finally, I told my husband I was going to walk home … and he didn’t act like he cared (which in reality, was not like him).  I went to go outside (which it was nighttime and it was snowing) … my husband shouts out to me, menacingly “I have a gift for you out in the snow” …

I walk outside … and in the snow was a hit list.  It first started off by saying, “The people I want to kill …”   and after was my kids names and then my name.  I took off running in the cold toward my house and as I was walking, guns were being fired at me.  I tried to hide in the ditch until I was found by someone who I would assume knew my husband …

…Then, I woke up.  So there’s that ….

When I went back to sleep, I had another nightmare.  The whole dream was consistent of this worship leader (that I knew from a church I use to attend) starting to harass me online and tell me what a horrible human being she thought I was.  I kept telling her I didn’t know what she was talking about … and yet she continued to belittle me and tell me every horrible thing she could think of.  When I tried to block her, she popped up in another message using a different profile.

 

…And then, I woke up from that one ….

 

It seems my nightmares consistently revolved  around me and my kids lives being threatened or getting harassed.  Maybe I have something demonic who hates me and wants to give me these nightmares …

 

…Or, maybe it’s something deeper and it has to do with me.

 

All I know is … I am definitely praying harder than usual before I go to sleep tonight. 😕

 

I may post another entry today … hopefully something happier 😊.  Take care everyone and God bless!

 

Much Love Always,

Amber.

 

P.S.  I know for a FACT that my husband wouldn’t do anything that heinous and ungodly. I think it has something to do with me 😔

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March 5, 2020

Oh my gosh, that sounds terrible. I have night terrors frequently where people are out to hurt my kids and me…or I relive past traumas. It’s the worst! It almost sounds like anxiety over a lack of control in your life…like the world coming to get you and you can’t do anything abt it.

At any rate, I hope you can get some rest soon, bc so much wellness hinges on being well-rested…

March 5, 2020

@thecriticsdarling you know, I think you’re right.  I have constant panic attacks and anxiety issues for a long time.  I am a child abuse survivor so it may all stem from that …

I am definitely going to bed early tonight so I hope that helps 😔

March 5, 2020

@angelgrl87 i have similar issues stemming from my childhood, so i definitely empathize with you. hang in there!

March 5, 2020

@thecriticsdarling thank you so much!

March 5, 2020

It has nothing to do with demonic-anything, hon. Fuel in dreams represents your energy; a gas station would be the source of energy, which, by the number of people featured in the dream, is being depleted by overwhelming activity/responsibility; the snow represents paralysis – in the context of this dream, it could mean you feel paralyzed by too much responsibility and thus feel de-energized; the names on the hit list are your individual responsibilities, and the “wanting to kill” message is your subconscious want/need to escape, at least temporarily, from those responsibilities, in order to replenish your energy.

Talk to your hubs maybe about establishing a weekly “me” day, in which you go away to either shopping, a spa, out with your friends, or just to a park or gym  🙂

March 5, 2020

@thenerve hmm interesting perspective ….well thank you so much!  I definitely thought about taking some me time…I’ll just put it into action 😊

March 6, 2020

That first one is a doozy. :^o But they are just dreams and that’s it.