Life goes by so fast!

.Right.Now.

.Tick.Tock.
11:35 PM
.Wearing.
A red shirt with a hoody on it (it’s aeropstale…labels SUCK by the way, lol) and jeans
.Eating.
nothing
.Drinking.
nothing
.Talking.To.
no one…they all left! lol…
.Listening.To.
nothing…I’m just bored
.Thinking.About.
so many things…like always
.Praying for.
Carl…and I am praying that God keeps blessing me with his miracles! GOD IS GREAT YALL!!

Hey all! I went to my new home today…I had to put together the beds we gotten today. After that I had to hang up all the clothes that was given to me….personally, I don’t think I needed anymore except for like pants and stuff…but I dunno. I’m grateful that all these people are willing to help me out and everything…but ya know, my brother, mom, and sister need it more than me…I have enough clothes that people gave me since I moved here.
Also, after I move, the police cars are gonna be riding through the apartment complex…BECAUSE they want to make sure that nothing bad happens to me. I think it was either protective services that did that or…I dunno.
Look, I know that I was sexual violated by my step dad, but I think that I’m OK now….I don’t need freagin’ police cars making sure that I’m not gonna get hurt. It’s nice of them, but I don’t need a buncha people feelin’ sorry for me. The past is the past and I’m MOVING ON. I don’t know….I guess they are suppose to do that or something. I’m not sure how this whole thing works out.
And also, I HAVE to go to Delaware for court in January…if I don’t, my mom will go to jail. I DON’T MIND GOING BACK! I miss it soooo much! I miss all my friends! Plus, I don’t mund facing my problem ONCE AND FOR ALL! Maybe things will get alittle slower for me. Like TIME! Next month and after days after next month will be exacly ONE year that I have moved from Delaware to Tennessee because of the whole step dad situation. Everything is passing by so fast that it’s like spinning in front of me. Darn…I really just wanted my home life to change and what Scott was doing to change…not the school life I had and the friends that were involved in it. I LOVED my school life…I LOVED my classes, my teachers, and that one half of the life I had that was truly happy…I just wanted to other half to change. That life I hated and was NOT happy. I just wanted to be content. Now that I have God with me…and it was a friend from Delaware that helped me see that God was RIGHT there. My family, here in TN, wants NOTHING to do with me…and they think bad about us…because of my GRANDMOTHER. We are supposedly the reason that her life is a waste. My  family except for maybe 2 members (but I don’t know about them) that think bad about us and don’t want anything to do with us. My mom, my brother, sister, and me are all alone. The only family that WOULD support us is the family on my real dads side (which is only my real dad and grandmother…I would say grandfather too, but he passed away. I miss him very much.)…but even this family can’t. Not that they want to, but they also need money to support the other brother and sister I have. Which that us also important…
I just need to pray…will you guys also pray for me too?
Well, I’m gonna go. I love you all sooo   much! Take care and God bless you always.
In Loving Spirits,
~Amber~
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