I’m back you guys! YAY!

I’m back…AND I’M A NEW ME!!!! This past weekend was a blast! I had fun at my lil’ resort. The theme of it was called “Extreme Makeover: God’s Edition”…IT WAS SO AWESOME!! All I did the ENTIRE weekend was talk about God and sing and pray and play games in his name. It was so wonderful. I cried through some of it and I was really touched through a lot of it. It was the most wonderful experience of my LIFE! 
That part that really got to me was today’s service (it’s like saving the best for last, huh? ^_^)…The speaker of the session was talking about how her 2 year old daughter influeced her through a book that she was reading to her. She read the book to us…which was about how the cadepillar and the warm were on God’s search to find out what the Lord meant by his most powerful quote “I am not finished with you yet. You will have a heart like mine”and in the end the caterpillar understood that it didn’t matter if he was ugly, because in God’s eyes he was beautiful. And in the end the catepillar turned into a beautiful butterfly….well anyway, we were talking about how a christian person needs to have a kind and gentle heart because everytime you make fun of a person that is different from you, everytime you put down someone that is poor or doesn’t have some of the things you have, everytime you are have listening to your friends, everytime you are disrespecting your parents……God is hurting inside. She mentioned that EVERYONE is beautiful….so that really touched me….
What go to me the most was when she was mentioning Jesus’ last super. She was saying though the deciples were puzzled but what Jesus meant by his words, Jesus lifted the bread in the air and said “This is my body. When you eat of this, remember me.” And he said the same about the wine being his blood. She went on by saying that though you may feel that the world is after you or when everything seems lost….remember what Jesus DIED for. At that moment I just closed my eyes and I started crying because I was so sick of feeling pain in my life and feeling like there was no one in this world that really cared about me. I just closed my eyes and I prayed to myself asking God if he would let me be as strong and loving like he is and that he would let me live my life happier….
…She passed the bread and grape juice to the design team so that EVERYONE could take a piece of the bread, dip it in the juice in rememberance. Though I’m not baptized yet, it was for everyone there…it wasn’t like a regular church (though we were having a service that was kinda like one. It was just a place for teens and they recommended EVERYONE to do the communion….so I did it. When I did the whole thing, I was really shaky and I was really touched. I just felt really light hearted and it was like I was pure again…..like right now I still feel that way. Right now, I feel like the HAPPIEST person in the world. I think a lot of my friends and family can tell too because when I was being perky talking to them, it was like that they just got in a good mood…
For example, when I started getting really depressed, some of the people I was talking to were kinda like “I hope I don’t say something wrong” around me. I’m gonna use Carl as my example ( which whom I think is a midget with STINKY FEET! Yeah, you heard me Carl…I said you have stinky feet! So whatcha gonna do about huh? HUH? LOL I’m kidding…he’s my buddy)…well anyway. In the past when I’d talk to him (on the phone or even online), he was kinda like alittle distant from me because of how I would act (and I see that now). He would be like “Hi how are you” and then when I wouldn’t get out of my depressing state…he just was kinda stand offish….maybe sometimes he wasn’t, be there were times where he was. Well, I called him today and he was at first kinda blah sounding…but then I get to talking to him and we are cutting jokes, picking on eachother and talking about christian (but that’s what we usually talk about anyway)…so things are now back to the way they were when me and him were ALWAYS cuttin’ jokes and saying things other people would normally see it as “Gosh that is the most stupid thing I have ever heard”…lol but that’s ok because I like it that way. I’m really glad me and him are friends. He is like the closest person on the PLANET (Carl, shut up! lol) and I love him bunches and bunches! ^_^

Well, I am the most happiest person ever! I have all my faith and hope back! I’m back to the person that I once was. I am so happy that I am too because that person you just saw in the past few entries WAS NOT ME! I don’t know WHO that was….but she is over and this new person is now here! ^_^

Sooooooooooooooooooooooo-I’m gonna go now :-)…I love you all so much! You all take care and may God be with you…no I mean it, may GOD ALWAYS be with you forever and ever and ever and ever….and ever-ever-ever-ever-ever *Narrator cutting in: Um, Amber I think they got the point*..Ok I am going now. I love you all. God bless.

In Loving Spirits,
~Amber~