Blocking Memories …

Have you ever blocked something out because it was too painful?  It was like you blocked it while it was happening (or right after) …

It could even be memories with friends … the good times you had with them were blocked because something traumatic happened during that time.  Same with any other loved one.  You even forget about the people you cared about … because the situations connected were too painful.

I’ve dealt with that …. and then some.

Or … then there’s worse.

You remember every single detail during the traumatic event … and during those moments, time goes slower and slower.  And if anyone else is tied to it (people that you care about it and who were also hurt) … the thought of how they were feeling hurts worse.  The thought that they were hurt and you couldn’t stop it is tormenting.
And it’s something you wish you COULD forget, but can’t.

This is me too.

I still have some deep wounds … and I know I need lot of healing.  All I can do is give it to Jesus.

Just some thoughts I am having at the moment 😔