3/2/2021

It’s late at night.

My husband had a bad day.  When he does, I usually try to stay away.  I can’t cheer him up or encourage him…when he’s upset, he usually doesn’t allow himself to here my words that “Everything will be ok” or softly rubbing his arm to try and calm him.  So since I feel helpless…I just stay away.

I feel like I am useless in this marriage.  I feel like I’m only an accessory, sometimes. I asked him about it but of COURSE he says it’s not true.  After almost 12 years of marriage, he still doesn’t let me in.

Nights like this, I try to keep my head up.  It’s just getting harder to keep it up.  I feel like I can’t have a discussion with my husband without him getting more upset or angry.

I just need a lot of prayer, if that’s possible? Thank you.