Seduce me.

I love my baby girl like I never thought possible. But I am imperfect for her. I look at her beautiful face and perfect smile and BIG blue eyes, and I think, why on Earth did God bless me with this amazing creature? She is hands down the best baby ever created. Can I live up to what she needs? Am I enough for her? She looks at me like I am, but I know otherwise. Sometimes I think I’m perfect for her. Other times, like right now, I think I will never ever be enough.

Yeah, Maybe I should have been seducing my husband all along. But I am in charge of everything in our lives. I run this shit. I take care of this baby, pay the bills, keep everything togehter….he goes to work and comes home and goes on his boat and fishes. Thats it. He doesnt know how much this bill is or that bill, he doesnt know anything about his own student loan (his mom and i do- his mom set all that up for him). So fuck you. Maybe I would like to be seduced. Maybe I am the mother and the wife and the homemaker and the nursing student twenty four fucking seven. So maybe i would like A BREAK, in the bedroom would be the best place to take this break. Maybe he could let me forget my worries and step away from my role as being in charge for just 10 fucking minutes. Maybe he should seduce me, take control of me…i would let him do anything to me he wanted. Maybe I want him to please me, make me happy, get me off, the way i strive to do for him in all other aspects of life including sex (when we rarely have it.)

Baby is crying, gtg.

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