06/16/2013

Well that fight was over the next morning, when I was home alone with Lucy and cut the top of my thumb off while chopping veg for our juicer. Paul was out fishing and I called him. He was really sweet and came home to help me. Later that night we both laughed it off and apologized. I have been overly critical of him lately because off all the negative things going on with my in-laws. Everything my bro-in-law said about Paul and their family dynamic really scared me. I don’t want Paul to be like them.

Baby is growing well. I went for my ultrasound and they moved my due date up 5 days. I’m now due December 13 ! Its the feast day of Saint Lucy, and also my only living grandparents birthday (my mom’s mom, my nanny). Im so happy it got moved up a little, but I knew it would for some reason. So now im 14 and a half weeks along.

I’m feeling so much better this week. No daily headaches, nausea, terrible stomach aches every time I eat anything…that’s all gone. My moods are better and i’m irritable less often. I still get irritable but its just not an all day thing anymore thank god! I’m sleeping better too. I’m tired a lot which is normal. I don’t feel any kicks yet–I know the baby is too small.

I should be able to find out the sex right around Lucys birthday!!! I’m so excited. Once I know the sex I will be in high gear preparation mode I think. I want to sort through the stuff I have and figure out what i’m doing with everything, and figure out how to set up the room (we have 2 bedrooms). The baby will be in our room until he/she is sleeping really well, and until Lucy can take it I think. But their stuff with still be in the same room. So I have to sort through that, figure out what dressers are for whom, and where everything will go. I’m excited to do it! I just cant start until I know if we are having 2 girls, or if I will have a new set of boy clothes to find a home for.

We still want Isla as our girls name. I heard the middle name Joy recently and I think I’ll run that by Paul for another middle name option. And want to think of other middle names like that, that have those literal types of meanings, because I think Paul would like that as opposed to family names that he has no connection to, and I think they are cute and less formal.

Hmm what are some other middle names like Joy? I don’t like hope or faith. Im willing to really think out of the box- its a middle name after all, so its ok if its not mainstream.

We haven’t talked about baby names again though because Paul feels we have so much time. I still like Eli but i’m open to other ideas. I was reminded of Nathan the other day and I like that too. Boy names are so hard. I would use a family middle name though, like Michael or Stephen.

Ive written about this so many times but im just thinking out loud. I LOVE PLANNING BABY NAMES. I used to do it to help me fall asleep before I even had kids.

I have been busy and tired and pregnant and…not overwhelmed but I am tolerating less. Im working 2 days a week, school one, usually an appointment off island on another day, and then a day to study, plus 2 days of fun stuff with my parents. Needless to say, Lucy is watching a lot of cartoons (on my phone, on my moms ipad, in the car, etc…we actually don’t have tv!) I feel guilty about this. But on the other hand its like, im coping, and its working, and I know its a parenting cop out at times. But when its past her bed time, and we have to get in the car and drive home, of course I bribe her to get in the car by promising she can watch her yo gabba gabba DVD in the car (we have a drop down player built into the suv we drive). She will run to the car then, and come right inside when we get home, no problems. I feel bad that she is getting used to watching cartoons on the computer while eating lunch, so I can get other things done while she eats, like cleaning up and whatever. It was all good, but now shes starting to expect to watch something more and more often. Saying no is harder than it used to be (crying!). She is also 2. so theres that. But I don’t think its crossed the line of too much cartoons yet. I wonder how much is too much though. I really avoid letting her watch stuff, and I make sure its educational, and I make sure its not multiple times a day unless were having a really hard day and we’re out or something. I try to set limits.

Well that’s about it for today. Happy father’s day, dads!