I want to feel nothing

I want to wilt away in the breeze ans just go, be done with this pathetic life.

It sucks that I can’t track my weight but what can you do i guess. I’ve been sucking and over eating by a lot, but I’m getting back on track today.
I remember doing this really good workout called the mouse workout (Because you where quiet while doing it) and I can’t find it and it sucks a lot.  The hunger feels really good though forgot how much I liked it.