Northern CA bound…

ive decided upon graduation in May that I am leaving missouri and moving to northern ca. Ive been looking around the Arcata area and decided that lack of balls is not going to keep me here. Ive always had to have things planned out..job, house..all that shit. ive decided (due to current hatred of my life and lifestyle) that i need to get the fuck out.

i know all that bull about problems follow where ever but i truely believe that jumping states would be more than good for my soul.

issues include: comming up with several grand to get established..making $500 rent right now is breaking me so i have a feeling $900+ is going to be difficult to acheive. finding a new job. thats what is going to freak me out. ive always had jobs..since ive been 18 ive always had 2 (even at times 3) jobs- noone asks about dedication on resumes….

hilarious i have a fucking degree come may and cant even get a god damned interview.. guess thats what comes with being a plant science major. ALL I WANT TO DO IS DESIGN LANDSCAPES

i always told myself to do what i love not for the money..and now its time to bite that bullet and swallow it without puking all over myself.

lets hope time doesnt deny me what i really want out of this life