Meandering Musings

Usually if i haven’t updated in a while it’s because I’ve been superbusy. But this week I really haven’t been. It was werid having my tuesday free again. It made all the readings clamoring for my time less urgent, and freed me from trying to force my circadian rythm into the conformity of a 9-5 day. I’m not sure what to do with all this free time. Fortunately (?) final papers, readings, presentations and exams will soon make the decision for me.

My emotions have gone up and down this week, not really reaching peak highs or lows, just flowing up and dipping down like a wave of sound or the shirley temple curls in my hair. Even without the peaks, it’s been draining.

It’s been bloody hot! I suffered through stubbornly, refusing to put in the AC until finally caving friday night. So of course now it’s gonna be in the 50’s next week and my window is un-openable. The guy who was gonna sublet bailed at the last minute. Actually he’d never agreed to the place, he just seemed really interested, to the point where I let out a sigh of relief that the hassle of finding a subletter was all over, only to receive and email from him saying he’d found a place that was more what he was looking for. Another guy is coming by this afternoon. Hopefully it will be a different outcome, otherwise it’s bakc to criagslist I go.

This entry has a dark moody tone to it. More so than I’m actually feeling. I’m not sure why.

In actuality it feels nice to be back, refreshing. I think i just needed a mini OD vacation. Each entry was sounding repititive. Droning on into nothingness. There wasn’t anything I wanted to say. I’ve been having the same feeling in my paper journal too. It’s more sporadic now than ever before and I know it’s gonna make me sad when i look back on it and don’t have every single day like i did in all the other ones. There’s a flavor, a realness you lose when you’re recaping the whole week vs. documenting it as it comes. You lose the progression of feeling and growth over time.

I need to make it more of a priority again…