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ohh dear perhaps looking through my japan successor’s photo blog was a mistake.
i have been a busy bee. in two weeks i got a car, a roommate, an apartment, and a cell phone… i kept myself very busy so i never really had time to think about what i left behind. but now all that stuff is done, now i have some free time to sit and think and it’s catching up to me. i knew i wanted to leave. i knew i couldn’t stand it anymore. i knew i had to come back and live the rest of my life. but maybe it will always nag at me, the life i left behind in japan.. i will always look through these pictures she’s taking and think "that’s MY apartment" and "that’s MY car" and "that’s MY friendly neighborhood cat maru"… it hurts, in a weird way. i wanted to leave so badly, i was going crazy there… but once i’m back, i don’t know. it hurts. she’s living MY old life. i set it all up, i didn’t have a predecessor so i found that apartment, i bought that car, i rode that bicycle. it’s weird. i wasn’t sad to leave, there were certainly no tears shed at the airport or during any of the goodbyes, but now that i’m back.. shit.
texas is just another word for nothing left to lose.
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So r u getting a ps4?
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