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most of the time i don’t particularly miss japan. i miss certain aspects, certain people, certain places… but as a whole i know i need to be here. sometimes, though.. a couple nights ago i was falling asleep, thinking about lots of things on the way out… suddenly it occurred to me that the life that i had there was OVER, really OVER… as in, even if i go back, nothing will be the same; my car won’t be there, my stuff will be someone else’s property and as the years go by i might not recognize anything or anyone anymore. and that thought BOLTED me awake out of my half-asleep state. i knew i had left, but in my mind things are suspended as they were when i left them — the reality that if i go back, nothing will be the same anymore — that was striking.

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September 24, 2013

So where are you now? And do you like it there better?

September 25, 2013

You can never enter the same stream twice.

September 25, 2013

Last night it occurred to me that I really, really miss heated toilet seats. <3

YAH
September 25, 2013

Don’t look back, look forward to new experiences, made even better with what you bring to the table from your past experiences.