to make changes and improvements
I am still intending to come here and write some big entries and big specifics. Unfortunately, I find that lately I am not very good at multi-tasking or multi-focusing. We have to get BF’s application to Second Career finished by Tuesday afternoon and I am very worried that we will not be prepared to have that completed the way we (I?) want it to be — and I’m afraid I can’t think of much else. It’s think of that or nothing at the moment. I can’t believe certain mental differences in me… since high school… since before I moved here… *sigh* but more on that in a later missive…
I wanted to report that somehow, according to my scale, I am back down about 4 lbs – so I am only behind 1lb now towards my goal. This is good news!!! and I will TAKE IT! 😛 – however it makes me suspicious. I have not been starving myself or doing insane amounts of exercise to warrant this lost of 4-ish lbs in one or two DAYS. I tend to think it’s water weight of some kind… I think I will try to weigh myself daily to see just how much I am fluctuating…
Tomorrow night I am bound to go out to dinner with the crazies. *sigh* it should be an interesting evening. BF has not made it abundantly clear YET that we are moving September 1st whether or not he gets into this program. CFMIL keeps asking if he has heard from the school yet – obviously thinking that if he doesn’t get it we won’t move. Nice of her to be so hopeful for him. But that’s the way she is. There should be SOME fireworks when the full truth of the matter hits her…. aye yi yi
At least it’s chinese food tomorrow night and at least she’s paying (she won $2K at bingo the other night *grumble*). And at least I won’t have to go out with them on Father’s Day to celebrate someone else’s (not even BF’s, since he’s dead) father.
Today I am greatful for…
* My new book! Even though we have no extra money right now, BF managed to get me the next book in my series. (The Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon) I was third on the list to get it from the library so I was depressed after finishing the last one last night LOL I’m already about 150 pages into Voyager and it’s great!!
* That we have enough food to eat, even though we are out of certain essentials and don’t get paid until Friday.
* That we got approved for a credit card before BF is officially unemployed. We will require one to travel in South Africa next year and to make wedding arrangements but there was little to no chance of us getting one after BF is unemployed… dilemma solved!
* That my kitties love me… they rip up my curtains but they love me… and they cuddle me and love me when I’m feeling down.
* That pseudo is writing, even if it’s just a little bit, on a fairly regular basis now. She inspires me to write more here and is supportive!
* That we are planning to move to Ottawa to be closer to my family, to get further away from the crazies… to make changes and improvements and to make steps forward in our lives… It’s so incredibly stressful to me but I am so very happy to be at the point where this decision has finally come into play.
…. I think that’s enough….
and I have to pee!
cya soon!