expunging before bed

distressed about our taxes and the damn govt taking more than what they should. long story.
distressed about weight and health problems.
distressed about wedding postponements. I don’t want to wait but I want to be skinny. for a couple reasons. I don’t want our finances to be in the crapper if we take a month to go out into the african wilderness. i desperately don’t want anyone else to do the african safari wedding thing first. african honeymoons are becoming more popular. i don’t want it to expand to the whole wedding until AFTER i have done mine. waaaa.