Welcome back, OD

When the DM announced he was shutting down OD back in 2014 I was angry. Livid. He had abandoned us so long ago anyway and now he was not only checked out but robbing us of our home. I was angry for a long time and eventually I realized I was also broken-hearted. OD had been my home since 1999 and its absence was like a hole inside me.

I tried prosebox (as one of my previous entries notes) but it was never right. I wrote in it maybe once or twice and then consciously abandoned it.

So for 4 years I just didn’t write. Anything.

So much has happened in those four years.

I don’t write novels anymore. Not because I don’t want to but because I can’t anymore.

I moved again, I adopted 2 more cats and a snake.

I got married. Jenna was my maid of honor.

I got fired from the best job I ever had (that I never even wrote about here despite working there for over a year before OD went dark) despite not doing anything wrong.

I have made friends and lost them. Helped them through difficult times and been helped when I needed it.

Lost contact with my family and then made up with some of them but its been almost a year since I talked to my brother. Maybe someday he’ll divorce his wife and see what a poison she has been in his life and I’ll get my brother back.

Before I opened this entry to write it I re-read my entire diary which starts in early 2004 (my original diary, long since deleted, started in 1999) and I’m happy to say that I am not the same girl who started writing here. Reading my entire history has given me a really beautiful perspective on my life in its current iteration. As much as I missed OD I don’t know if I’ll continue writing here. I hope that I do. I think a big part of coming back will be the reintroduction of customization. At least in coloring the pages to feel individual. Thats part of what made OD home, I think.