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I am not sure how long I will be hanging out here so everything will be cross posted to prosebox.  If I get my old diary back I will probably stay for at least a couple years but I haven’t received word if I will get my old diary back or not.  I am sure they are busy.

I am pretty tired right now.  Finn has been sick for the past few days and sickness for us means increased ketones which means risk of hospitalization.  I have been doing my best to keep them down, because I do not want to deal with the hospital again.  It means he gets extra insulin and is low a lot, which means we have to stay up and monitor and treat the lows..

Jeff and I are exploring buying a new house.  We are a family of 8 living in 1,000 square feet and its not working anymore.  We had been looking at homes for the past month with the intention of moving.  Well, Jeff came to me yesterday and said what if we wait a few years to move.  The thing is we need to do credit repair anyway, so a few years is helpful with that.  The other reason he wants to wait is right now Finn is eligible for SSI until age 6 because of his diabetes.  If we buy a second house he would be ineligible for that.  If we sold our current house and bought a new one we would be eligible but I am going to be honest, I dont want to sell.  Its completely paid off, I would really like to use it as rental property in the future.

So right now we are staying here, but in order to stay here we have things that have to happen because I cannot live in this clutter anymore.

Our house is too damn small for us, so I need to work on getting creative.  We will be putting up a garage in less than a year.  I got a quote and its 15,000 installed.  I will probably need to pay some extra money to get the “site” ready but the garage will help me a million percent in terms of storage and I am sure it would increase the value of the house.  We will redo the roof and paint as well.

Im not patient.  I dont want to be here.  I want to move dammit.