Mundane

I am going to do that thing I used to do where I just…..write about my day and stuff. Weird.

Jeff had to go back to Denver he left today. I am actually super proud. Driving to the airport stresses me out in so many ways so I paid for Jeff to just park at the airport so I dont have to drive. He will be home Friday. Its nice to not have to be anxious about leaving. I have literally locked the house up and I wont have to open the door at all. I know that sounds weird. I have agoraphobia and I am afraid of leaving my house or seeing people or being forced to talk to people. With him gone we will just live our lives within the confines of the house and back yard.

I am really struggling with school right now (the kids school). I am exhausted. I am so tired of being teacher. I am shackled to Mac during his entire school day because his ADHD needs someone there refocusing. I dont get much done. I think I will have Mac park himself in my room tomorrow and I will work on unpacking. I have not tried to do a project during his school day so it will be interesting to see if it works.

I am sleeping on the couch tonight watching CNN because I am obsessing over whats happening. For now its bedtime, tomorrow I will update more about where we are.