So its a change

I can’t remember the last time I put my thoughts on paper, its been awhile I’ll say. There are so many things I can remember that maybe in someway are way better to be forgotten. I guess I just couldn’t get that lucky huh? I finally in all the years I’ve been alive I might have some kind of normal. I’ve been in the same place longer than six months and for once I can make my own choices, or at least for right now I think so. I’ve been at my job over a year now and its nice to know I did it because of me. I have a soon to be two year old nephew and My sister was married last year. My younger sister is still with the same guy its been over two years for them. I only wish her school and working was important to her too. As for my younger brother I wish I had many good things to say about him, however I don’t. He’s living in a fantasy world and wants to take on the things he’s just not ready to yet. He is living with his girlfriend and well, he’s not working or doing school. From what I’ve been told they are having a hard time getting by. I can’t always give him the easy way and even though its so hard, I had to walk away and let him fall and get him self back up. My mom is working and has her own house. I must say I am so very proud of her. I can remember way back when, when all I thought is that she didn’t care. I held such a grudge against her, and growing up I know now it wasn’t her fault. Sure things could have been different, but if that were the case I wouldn’t be as strong or as depended as I am today. I don’t think I could be as thankful for everything in my life that I do have if it wasn’t for all things that happened or the things that were taken away. I believe more now in that saying "things happen for a reason" seeing that it’s so very true.
Its true the small things in life are the things that seem to mean the most through out life. My family has always meant the world to me. I think I’ve done more for them than I’ve ever done for my self. I wouldn’t change any of it either. I still find my self in deep thoughts and I forget what it was that I was doing. I am now engaged and very happy. I can say now I found my forever and life couldn’t be any better. Its always going to have its ups and down and I’m not always going to like everything that happens. Not everyone is going to stay, but not all are going to leave. I’ll thank you to those who put me down and thought so little of me, because you gave me the chance to prove to my self and the world that I can do anything I want no matter what. I was taught things I’ll keep with me forever. Thank you to those who were there and held my hands when I needed some help going the right way. I guess this is all for now, who knows what else there is to come..