So frustrated

I find my self tonight so wrapped up in how I feel, trying to get a handle on it this past week has been harder than usual. I almost feel as though I’m being smacked with something else before I even have a chance to deal with the first thing. My anger is starting to take over any other emotions I have and I know it’s festering into something that’s going to end bad.

Have you ever seen those videos where they take the Mentos candies and start putting them in a bottle of Pepsi or Coke? How at first it causes the bottle to fizz up some, but the more candies you place into the bottle the higher the pop explodes? Well that’s how my emotions are starting to feel, someone just keeps adding more to how I am already feeling and it’s starting to really bubble out.

I’m not one in just yelling at someone, I don’t like to raise my voice. Once those buttons are pushed and that barrier of keeping my cool starts to fade out and I lose that control to my tone or my words, all bets are off. I will come for your throat so to speak. The sense of feeling bad disappears completely and I don’t come back from that. The relationship is severed and I don’t normally rekindle anything.

Anyways I think I’m starting to get all wrapped up in my thoughts that I last my train of thought for this post.

It’s frustrating to think that someone can clearing tell your having a hard time but doesn’t care because it doesn’t benefit them. All they know how to do is take and when you have nothing to give your the bad guy.

Well unfortunately I will not be able to finish this entry because I have a tired and crabby child who needs to go to bed. So until another day.