I’m trying I really am

  I’ve given everything I have, I’ve tried harder and harder as each year passes. I keep telling my self its going to get better, but truth I’ve been telling my self a lie. Somethings can’t be fixed, some people won’t ever change and we have to learn to execpt that fact and move on. The hardest thing is putting so much time into something to get nothing in return. You stand there with a broken heart all choked up trying to hide tears and no one around you relizes something is wrong. Being let down sucks, but being let down over and over again you think after so long you would learn not to expect any different, yet you still have that little bit of hope that something will be different.
 I’m trying so hard I really am, but how much heart break can a heart take before there isn’t anything left of the heart to break? Truth is I’ve tried so hard with my mom, I’ve gone out of my way on so many things. Yet I have never meant to her anything close to anyone else in her life. Does it hurt? Of course it does, Its not even like I want much just something simple to show I matter in the littlest bit. I guess that’s always been way to much to ask for.