If you’ve ever read past stuff?

  If you have ever read anything I have posted on here, you will see I’ve been through a lot you can say. Reading back through those things it crazy to think about all of that stuff, although, my first thought now when I read that stuff is I was such a drama queen, my world didn’t end and I didn’t fall or fail. In fact I’m doing very well for my self. I have a job I’ve been at for a long time I’m doing school, and my grades are amazing. I have great people in my life and I am happily engaged with the most amazing man.
  I’ve come to learn that everything family has come with their set of problems and each family fights and no family can be perfect even if sometimes we want them to be. Everyone says things they don’t mean and things  happen that we can not control. I’ve blamed so many people for so many different reasons and I shouldn’t have. I’ve had friends and I have lost friends. I thought I was in love a few times and I ended up being wrong. I was trying so hard to make my life perfect and blame everything and everyone else for something that I didn’t even need to worry about. I did such dumb things and now I look back and wonder why I was so stupid. I’m not going to say my life is perfect nor would I want it to. I’ve learned to enjoy what I have in my life. I love who I am with now and I learned what love was when I went through everything that I did with him. Love isn’t just about being cuddly or the fact that all you can think about is the other person. Its not the sex you have or the fact that you get butterflies when he/she kisses you. Its so many things in one. Its knowing they aren’t perfect and being able to see past those things.