I was so caught up instead of just letting go

I was so caught up in something that took way more of my time than it needed to.  It was like trying to rebuild a house in the middle of a hurricane. Nothing ever stayed and the winds were so harsh that it just ripped everything from my hands, leaving me even more broken.

Instead of trying to rebuild the same broken house I decided to take shelter and give my heart and mind the rest it needed from all the back and forth and give me proper time to heal. Trying to repair was never the answer, but giving my self time and learning that sometimes its okay to just start over with new foundation.

Sometimes arguing your point just isn’t worth it, because sometimes no matter what you say or do its never going to be good enough. The battles you face and the things you put your self through just to build some kind of relationship with someone who will never see any side but their own just isn’t worth the heart ache that comes with it.

Sooner or later you will come to a point where it doesn’t hurt anymore and you won’t feel the urge to keep fighting the losing battle, you won’t feel bitter or angry you will just be done with it. I’m not saying you won’t love or care for the person but it will be more from a distant. Even the conversation will become a minimum or even nonexistent. Some relationships aren’t meant to last forever, even those between family.

Sometimes we just generally have to look out for our selves and what’s best for us, I feel that does not makes anyone wrong or heartless. I feel we can only take so much before the silents is better than the storm.

I hope that anyone who has ever felt this way is able to rebuild and with better foundation than they were handed in the beginning.  I hope anyone who has gone through this or is going through this finds some kind of peace in knowing that they aren’t alone or wrong. Sometimes our own peace is more important that allowing anyone or thing to make us feel less than.