Grew up I guess?
It was time to just throw up my hands and walk away from the past. Soon or later I needed to realize that the things I was holding on to were only holding me back from the better things in life. I allowed those things from the past take over my life and I lost sight of the good things that once made me happy. So I took everything I was use to and put it all into a box. Taking that box I locked it up and dug a hole to place it in. Burring it deep in the ground to never be found I turned my head and walk away from it, never once looking back.
I get to restart with everything. It’s nothing I’m use to, but the learning experience is something. I enjoy the day so much more now. No longer really talking to the same people or hanging out at the same places I use to once pretty much live at. I smile to my self thinking about how far I have come. I didn’t realize that I grew up so much faster than those I use to hang out with. How the jokes and games just weren’t really all that funny anymore. The he said she said games got old and all it did was bring me down.
I stand here today with the biggest smile on my face for the friends I have now and the fun things that take place. Spending more time with my family and getting back what we seemed to have lost a while ago. There isn’t anymore drama, or stupid comments that get made. Graduating soon, and moving out on my own with my boyfriend. Getting a job and soon to be driving, I’m moving on with life outside of a parking lot.
Growing up I guess there are so many things in life that do change for you. The people you grow up with aren’t always there the rest of your life even though you think so at the time. It seems that when you grow up you move on one way and they move the complete opposite direction. There is no really controlling it, just how things change. Sooner or later you have to grow up and realize there is so much to life. You just have to get up and be ready to get hurt along the way, and you can always lose those you once held so close to you whether you like it or not.
Wanting to be successful, and make something of my self. The only way to make it anywhere in life was to give up the life and friends I was so very use to. I had to step out of the past and take that many more steps into the future. Scared and unsure if I was going to be able to handle any of it, I stand here smiling because I’m doing just fine. I didn’t need those people to hold me up, I could do it on my own all this time. I still love and care for all of them, but that’s no longer my life……