Everything happens for a reason right?

 I wish I could say this year is getting better but the truth is its not. If anything nothing seems to be getting better. The more I think about it the more it seems to hurt. I hate this feeling and it seems like I can’t get past it. This past year I’ve lost my Aunt along with my grandma, and I thought I could deal with losing my grandma but the truth is I can’t. I don’t know how to just let her go. I’m just not ready to say goodbye and it hurts so bad when I try too. I want to lose my eyes and for all of this to be a very bad dream. I want to walk back into her house and her be sitting there like she use to. I just want for once to hear her one more time tell me she loves me. The truth is though I won’t ever hear her voice again unless its in my dreams and I can only wish to see her sitting at home because where she went she can’t just come back home. I can only talk and hope she hears me, but she will never be able to talk back. (I miss you grandma and I wish you were still with me.)

 

"I loved you then I love you now and I’ll love you forever"

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November 24, 2011

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