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I can finally type on a computer again, it’s been so long since i’ve been able to do that. I accidently knelt on my last computer & cracked the screen so i haven’t been able to see the entire screen. Every time i had to write an email i had to include an apology for errors because i couldn’t see half of what i was writing. I was going to get it fixed but turns out that getting it fixed was going to cost more than what the computer was worth. It’s only 2 years old but apparently its a dinosaur now. I recently finished the rent to keep contract so after i found out how much it was going to cost & it wouldn’t be under warranty anymore either i just got a new computer through the same company on the rent to keep for 18 months. It’s so good to see an entire crystal clear screen. This one comes with an inbuilt stylus that i can’t get out, so i’ll have to get that checked out. I’ve covered it with wild animal stickers & i still have more stickers iv’e ordered. I just turned 40 & here i am playing with stickers like a little kid. My mind doesn’t feel 40, so i’ll stick with that. But my body feels like it’s 90 with chronic health issues.

I’m in so much pain tonight, not as bad as last night. I did a few errands yesterday & walked a lot more than usual. The shop i picked up the computer from was so huge but luckily it was also a furniture shop so i was able to sit down when i needed to while making my way through to the other end to the electronics section. A nice staff member told me to sit & he would go do everything & bring my my computer while i stayed in a really comfy lounge chair that i’d never be able to afford lol. Then he insisted on carrying the computer to the car for me to. It’s the little things like that, that make a difference with people like me. Might be small gestures to most people but they are much bigger gestures to people like me who have chronic illness & mobility issues.

There has been a lot going on in my life since i last made a diary entry. The issue about where i live turned out in my favour. In the end right before we were due to go to court, literally a few hours dept housing agreed to my lawyers terms/contract or whatever it’s called. I got 12 months to work on my issues with professionals. I still think they could be doing more than they are for me considering what they promised at the beginning. 1 of my support workers doesn’t stay in contact with me as much as she said she would & i have no idea what’s happening with some of the paper work that she’s been doing for me. I’ve been seeing a psychologist regularly. The new team at dpt housing is much more understanding & respectful than the last ones & i don’t get as bad anxiety on inspection days.