5/12/04

This past week has been so freakin messed up.  How sad is it that everyday so far is just blurring together.

I found out I made it into Allied Health which I had been stressing out over a bit…I thought I would be all excited and relieved about getting in, but I really wasn’t.  All it feels like is just another thing.  I also made NHS, which is good.  Now maybe my parents will leave me the hell alone.

I have no idea what the hell has been wrong with me the past few weeks…I’ve just been kinda unhappy.  I think it’s all going back to my whole depression thing…but I don’t really like to talk about that.  I had an anxiety attack last night…greeaatt.  And you know what?  I have no fucking clue why!  I mean, technically I have nothing to stress out about, but then why the hell do I feel so stressed out all the time?  It’s like I always feel like I’m in a rush to do something, or have a lot of stuff to do, which i really don’t.  I think I need drugs…or somehing alcohol related.  I don’t think my parents really understand me as a person at all.  I mean, ok, I know that sounds reeally teenagarish, but seriously, I really don’t reveal my true self to anyone.  They just make a lot of things worse.

Eh, I don’t feel like writing anything else…damn it to hell, I should really start working on my history graduation project.